Thursday, January 26, 2006 @5:33 PM
These few days have been a rollercoaster ride for me and dear. For those who dont know, we decided to split up for a few days to really think through if we are still meant for each other. Somehow, our relationship became more like that between friends. The sparkles, with time, sizzle out quietly without any of us noticing it. Somewhat, our relationship has become too stable, to the extent that we dont quarral anymore. The impetus to our temporary breakup was this guy who was interested in me. It's not like he is a third party or anything, just that he's like a wake-up call to me that it's time that me and dear should start thinking whether we are each other's ideal partner or are we together for the sake of being together. additioanally, if we want to stay together for a long time, it's time we should be doing something to spice up our relationship. To cut the whole story short, we decided to get back together and try to work things out. It was undoubtedly a painful road to recovery, we can just quarral everynight when we dont even quarral anymore before the breakup. Gradually, things begin to fall in place again. I could see the efforts he has been exerting and I really appreciate it.. However, from this incident, I realised that there really is no such thing as a guaranteed forever in a relationship, no matter how deep your feelings for each other may be.
Before i proceed, I think i should put a disclaimer that this are purely my personal opinions and not a generalisation of te girls out there. I was talking to a friend the other day. It's always an enlightenment talking to him coz he seen more things in life in comparison to us, though we are of the same age. He was asking me if i will choose love or bread. I answered immediately, without batting an eyelid, bread. I think maybe he's a little disappointed in my reply. But tt's the truth. I mean, I'm still young, there's a long way ahead of me, perhaps then when i get married it's out of love to a poor man. I dunno, but tt's my stance so far. Maybe I'm just very used to leading a lifestyle where I'll definitely get what i want. My parents are doting parents who always satisfy all my unnecessary wants, especially my mum. Since young, i have also never lifted a finger to help out with the housework since i always have a maid. I just find leading a life less than that would be sad and hard.. People who knows me often commented that I'm a person who is too realistic and materialistic. However I dont think i should be faulted for being so coz it's all about personal expectations. . I dont really want to go deeply into what i have to say coz i think my thinkings are rather extreme and I dont want to hurt anyone who might be mistaken..
Whatever it is, wish u guys a happy CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-