Monday, February 28, 2005 @2:43 PM
today is just another plain farking day. wat's new man? in short, just gonna give u guys 2 pieces of advice.
(1) when some things happened the way u didnt want them to be, stop pushing the blame to harmless, innocent people. at the age of 21 years, if u cant fucking take responsibilty for ur own actions then screw u.
(2) if u want people to like u, if u want to be mr/ms popular, if u want people to have a perpetual good impression of u, then at least give people the basic respect people deserves. dun ever think u are just so farking up there man. hello?! u have boobs like every girls, or penises just like any tom dick or harry. or is it coz u have one boob bigger than the other? or coz u have 2 penises joined together? or coz u have boobs growing out of your head? or penises growing out of your ears? if not, i command some respect from u man! do u know that a simple sorry sometimes is all what it takes?
i'm just standing and waiting to see how long ur luck can last u. u dare smirk at my unambitious dream? so u really have a big appetite ya? mind u dun choke man.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@9:05 AM
before i formally starts blogging, like to share this email i received a long time ago.. but to read it only today. anyway, think some of u guys might or might not read it before, but i'm not going to paste the whole thing down.. perhaps just one part (the coloured para)
"Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears AND you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think."
is this really the case? fucking bullshit. if u are going to be simple-minded and kind to everyone then u are just a stupid bloody fool. THIS WORLD IS UNFAIR. stop thinking that by being good to everyone u will be an angel. let me tell u, there's no angel in this world. even if angels really exist, they are tainted. the movie "constantine" painted the picture out beautifully. even if u are not going to be selfish, who is going to be generous and selfless towards u? just as smilarly, there are no perfect agents on earth. mother teresa is not a perfect agent either. and let me tell u guys honestly, i hate nice people. the nicer they are, the more i think they are just so plastic. people who i often pour my woes out to shud jolly well know the illustration swimming in my mind this very moment. the person who wrote the above statement is probably an old granny who knows nothing abt the screwed minds of people. lucky her. anyway abt the part of taking off ur jealousies and envies, i think that just sound so hackneyed. can anybody even do that? if so, why the need for plastic surgery? y the need for degrees? plain bullshiting again.
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went to watch white noise with jan, kk, dan, jeremy and winston. think the movie is damn scary. was literally screaming my lungs out. didnt want to go initially, but still went when kk called to inform me that he managed to buy the tixs. he cursed me already u see. he cursed me that if he managed to buy the tix and i fly aeroplane, i would be left on the shelf this lifetime. freaking ass right?! lol.. head to breko at holland v after that where martin joined us shortly. the beer is damn cheap. 2 for $10. we all drank tiger. it's sweeter than heineken lor. realised that we probably look like some ah peh and aunties by drinking tiger beer. the hippie people ard us were all drinking heinken. lol. the green bottle just looks cool only lar. we shud support singapore products mahz. if we dun give them a chance who would? tiger is singapore product k?! play indian poker, blackjack, heart attack, all sorts of card games to while the time away. went home only around 3+. there were loads of laughter. as usual, hanging out with them has always been fun.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, February 24, 2005 @9:51 AM
been thinking real hard abt the advert working life, abt where i shud go (if opportunities allow), etc. shan elaborate. i've been wondering what's really the fuss between the big 4 and investment banks. it seems like everybody's dream in accountancy course is to work in an investment bank, including me as well. tt was a serious mistake. when pple are lost, then tend to go with the flow. i guess i was just one of those who were still lost then. not anymore thou. one day i woke up and i suddenly realise that, hey, what's the fark? u have no interest in finance. so y do u keep harbouring the hope that u would be recruited? i admit openly that i am an achiever. i hate to do something and be labelled just an average. tt explains my painful life in NTU. i have absolutely no interest in calculating those risks and stuff. the reality is, i prefer accounting to finance. lol. ya, call me gross and disgusting. u guys are just sour grapes.
kailing called me last night and after chatting with her, she re-affirmed my tots. i guess i would be very happy if i can enter one of the big 4. they just sound more prestigious. lol. yupz, tt's another side of me. superficial. haha. but if during the remaining years in NTU, i manage to learn more stuff abt finance and it manages to interest me, perhaps i might consider entering a bank. as mentioned earlier, tt is if i have the luck and opportunity. luck plays a crucial factor in our success man. cheers to luck!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@12:39 AM
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♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, February 22, 2005 @2:30 PM
*yawn* waiting for gel to come to my house at the moment to get our GE project done. falling asleep soon. she's late. *yawn again* decided to blog while waiting. *drum fingers*
well.. wat shall i blog?
10 seconds
20 seconds
*stress*.. beads of perspiration are forming on my forehead..
*drip drip*
56 seconds..
AH HUH! *phew*
well, do you people ( i mean bloggers) specifically, while reading other's blog, have the tendency to introduce some element of the other blogger's writing style into your own? i dunno abt me, but of coz i rather like to assume that i hadnt. thank you very much. hey it involves an infringement of copyright issues here man. it's ok to copy and paste something interesting from the other blogger's blog but not their writing style k?! lol.. of coz i would be delighted and relieved to say that, coz i've always snope around for interesting entries and the paste it onto my own blog. anyway wat i usually copy and paste are actually indirect advice to my readers abt their life man. just like the entry on love. that was really something enlightening and meaningful wat. love is an emotion that all of us go thru mahz. ya. so my dear readers. rest assured that if u have told me ur problems, i would include my most appropriate and wonderful advice to u here. from the courtesy of other bloggers. lol.
forgot to include in my enrlier blog about my sojourn in my dad's temple yesterday. dunno wat was the occasion. but they set up this karaoke stage where all these hot babes were shaking their bon bon like nobody's biz. wonderful. wonderful. seeing their dance movements really put me to shame. *sigh and shakes head* these aunties can really shake their damn ass man! dammit! i reckon the temple is an avenue where they get to display their extraordinary dancing skills and of coz an invitation to their potential sugar daddies. should have seen how those ah pehs were ogling. *pui*
alright, think this entry is longer than expected. shall go back to waiting for dearest gel. *yawn yet again*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@10:15 AM
been absent for these few days coz i'v been depressed. waiting for Jay. so Jay does have a current squeeze!!! for the benefit of those who does not know, she's a taiwan MTV VJ called Patty. damn, is patty the singular of panties?
went to town yesterday to do GE project. discussion ended for less than an hour. totally waste my time. shopped around after tt. saw this polka dotted halter in esprit. fell in love with it but the xs is still too big for me!! have an obsession with polka dots at the moment and discovered a new found love for red. used to shun red coz i think it's too striking till i tried it on. perhaps i'm fair, tt's y i think it looks good on me. but then again, meinu chuan she me du mei. lalala~
been slacking these past few days man. really ought to pull up my socks!!
where art thou, my beloved jay?
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, February 20, 2005 @10:55 AM
as the title said it all.. went to mdm chao's house to bai nian. it was more of like a class gathering, where we met and update each other how we had been doing and stuff. it was kind of fun. but no CNY mood lar. no one gambled. lol. went home straight after that coz aunt they all were at my place playing mahjong. hmm.. didnt really had the chance to gamble too. hands itchy sia. after dinner went down with my cousins they all. had a talk with my big cousin (eve) abt life in NTU, the pple i hang ard with and of coz my looming working life. felt so much better talking to her. in case u guys dunno, i'm in accountancy course upon her wise advice. eternally greatful to her for being so caring and selfless. lol. yupz. she's a wonderful person. like a bIg sister to rely on whenever i lose my footing along the way. shan go into details abt what we talked about. decided to keep the info to myself coz i dun think some of the pple reading this deserves to know. lol. (my blog had been invaded by strangers!!) *gasp*
down with flu currently. hope i'll recover soon coz i intended to catch up on my readings this term break. kailing is very gia to go double o tmr. dunno if i shud go. feel like gg but at the same time feeling so damn sick. scared passed out. lol. somemore got hall bash this wed and zouk. feel like gg to catch up with pple i long lost contact with. but of coz the real reason behind it coz i want to play!
kailing told me something abt our impending honours and i feel kind of depressed upon hearing it. shan talk abt it here either coz i dun want some pple to unintentionally hurt my fragile feelings again. i feel kind if undermined in NTU. some pple have the propensity to underestimate my intelligence. at times i even feel tt i'm being treated like an idiot, up to the point that i feel tt i'm not being respected. what i said is equivalent to nothing said. but it's k. i will tolerate. who knows what the future brings. dun smirk at me man u farking pple.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, February 18, 2005 @11:23 PM
Jay Jay Jay!! can sense how damn excited i am at the mere mention of his beautiful name. just bought his concert vcd.. ahh.. he's so damn handsome.. i've nv stopeed loving him ever since i first laid eyes on him. i long for the day he will fall in love with me.. awww.. and we will live happily ever after. he's the reason to why i'm still alive.. JAY I LOVE U!! Bought his newest VCD. cant stop drooling the minute i play the VCDs. since i cant have him, guess i just have to settle for dreams of him. i shall think thinking of him very second now, shall not even let a split second go to waste. i want to dream of him kissing me passionately tonight.( with tongue). Hugging me closely, telling me tt i'm his deepest love. Duan peh gong, are u listening to me? Po bi me hor? i want dream of him k? po bi po bi.. when i reincarnate, i definitely want to be his wife!!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, February 15, 2005 @11:02 PM
Yeah! it's chu 7 today! so happy ren ri to all!! normally when lao-ing yu sheng i would shout the loudest. alright, actually i shout the word "huat ah!!" only.. lol.. today eat at some club.. too quiet. *shh* while eating my cousin suddenly commented i look like jenette aw. she is not the first person to say that le. darling's army friends also used to say i look like her, but tt was when i had shorter hair and also when she was starring as jingjing in he lan chun. later, my sister's bastard-ly ex also commented followed by darlin's mum and finally my cousin. *bhb* dunno if it's a compliment or what. coz she's pretty but not tt pretty sia. lol.
bought this pair of white rubber slippers from the carnival of nbs week. 5 bucks only. cheap cheap. i bought the pink pair from far east too the other day coz every other colours i want dun have my size. heng man. heng now school got sell. asked my sister to buy me the lime green one tmr. damn nice sia!! cheap cheap. bought this white bag from westmall yesterday too. saw it from afar and bought it coz it's just so cheap. was comtemplating whether to buy it not coz it's brandless! cant tolerate it coz i think it's been a million years since i last carried a brandless bag. tt's me man. i'm damn shitty brand self-conscious. regretted even buying it on my way home. resloved not to use the bag at all. showed the bag to my sister this noon and decided that it's quite nice after all. will use it soon i "modify" it a bit. lol.
anyway dear went home last night and told his brother abt the flowers issue thingy. his brother was kinda pissed and insisted on calling the manager to give him a piece of his mind. end up the florist delivered the large boquent of dasies to my house today. -free-of-charge- on top of this the manager delivered a large box of rocher too and sent a card to apologise. piangz. sibei pai seh lor. coz dear's bro like make a big fuss out of the whole issue. somemore asked his lawyer friend to even call the manager. blah blah blah. (lazy to type) in a nutshell, the manager must have tot i'm such crazy bitch. for goodness sake, it's just a boquent of flowers.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@12:04 AM
lol.. finally decided to update my blog to appease my much impatient avid readers, mainly zan and man. oh, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!! GONG XI GONG XI!!
Day 1:
Went to aunt's house to bai nian and also to gamble. sent parents to airport after that and return to strike it rich.. won about $20 from blackjack. main purpose of returning is of coz to collect as much ang baos as possible man. head home about 10 to eatch the remaining of My Girl.
Day 2:
collected dust at home. wanted to study but no mood sia. slept the whole day while darling play maple story happily like a gleamful kid on my PC. play overnight mahjong with bro's pesky friends. won 20 plus again but pai seh to take their money sia. still young lar.. me old bird.. i take children's money also blush. hit dreamland at only abt 5 plus, in dear's arms.
Day 3:
Skipped GE. Went to martin's hosue to bai nian. piangz. his parents werent hm. no ang baos to collect. damn. gave him 2 mandarin oranges but he nv return me 2 also. 2 chou seh oranges also want to cheat me. damn. lol. lost abt $100 plus at his house. must be daniel lar. he's my supreme jinx. defenitely lose money when he's around. should have learned my lesson based on past experiences. shitty. reach home to play overnight mahjong with sister's friends from NBS. dint really like either of them. decided to play with them coz wanted to recoup all my losses from martin's. somemore there's this couple who couldnt keep their hands off each other. this gf bought wine and kept asking her bf to down the wine down. think he got tipsy. sister then sent them back to the gf's hall. the bf whispered in my sister's ears that he's gg to rape her. kaoz. wtf. somemore t guy is abit the niang niang chiang lor. somemore he sweat machiam like raining. so profusedly one. *yucks* pity the gf who's gg to sleep with him. bet she will have smelly dreams instead of sweet dreams. back to mahjong with them, very the fast and exciting coz they are experienced players too. exciting coz they hu very fast one. in the end ssiter took over me and me and dear went to bed. got freaking jealous coz i sae this slut who dint take her hand away from dear's hand even when she accidentally touched dear's hands. whore.
day 4:
sleep sleep sleep.
day 5:
went to aunt's house for like half an hour. collected one more ang bao only. play with my baby cousins. wish that babies never grow up man. they are just innocent, unassuming and pure and undoubtedly adorable. it's either they adore u or thay hate u.
today:
sch starts. wat a day. couldnt catch up coz haven been doing my readings. f that. my life shud be more than just studies studies and studies. finally enlightened myself with the fact that there's gona be more to life. lol. familiar?
lunch at dear's place. his mum kept asking him to bring me out for movies, shop and eat. lol. kept asking dear to spend more time with me and to treasure me. lol. dear sure must be crying foul that his mother prefers me to him. *smirks*
anyway damn xpress florist shop. totally spoiled our whole V-day. supposedly to collect flowers dear ordered on sun. he ordered this huge bouquent of daisies. (my fav) then the freaking florist made him walk from level one to basement then in the end said they got no more daisies. f lor. mde order liao still no flowers. somemore dear paid le and they refused us a refund. how can? how can? but ok lar, in the end they refund the money back to us too. but dear was utterly pissed and me disappointed. coz this is gg to be the first time i'm gonna received flowers from dear. thou down i must be understanding too. i know it's not dear's fault. *sayang* it's k lar.. next year he can give me flowers again. after graduation i will take revenge. will open florist shop too, snatched all their cusotmers away. zan, are u reading this? i am ur potential partner!! *wave hands wildly*
heard this song from perfect 10. it goes like this," ba ba ba ba ba ba ba" anyone who knows this song inform me asap!! turn up ur speaker volume if u cant hear the song in the words.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, February 06, 2005 @11:24 AM
yes!! going shopping later with xinyu and zan later. made a pact with xinyu we will only return when the moon sets. lol.. i've been forcefully deprived of shopping man. it's finally time!! going to orchard later, followed by bugis!! hope i can find many many things to buy!! the irony is whenever i have money i seem to cant find anything to buy at all. :( hope today would be a fruitful shopping spree. whee~
QZ called me last night. but when i saw the number i tot it was justin coz the numbers looked the same. lol.. was expecting to hear justin's voice but nope. took some time to regsiter it's QZ! Felt really happy to be able to hear his voice man. somehow his voice always have a smoothing effect on me for some reason. maybe it's the way he talks? ok.. think he sounded jovial, crapping whenever he could. yupz. but sob.. this is the second time he returned to singapore and yet i couldnt meet up with him! unfair! the first time was coz i was forbidden to. the second time is coz of all my damn quizzes! :(
anyway QZ is one person who will always remain very special in my heart.. he's my first love after all! lol.. still remember my major crush on him man. would used to peep at him whenever his class walked past my class. secretly looking at his handsome face yet praying he wun notice.. if i dun see him i would get all panicky and will wonder if he's sick or something tt's y nv go sch.. so i had a major crsuh on him for ard one year plus before he was cajoled by yixuan.. that time i was really on top of the world.. but subsequently i did doubt if he really likes me coz he was being "forced" to ask me to be his gf.. lol.. ya.. the first guy i really held hands with and the first guy who sent my heart beating at 10000000 beats per second, who sent butterflies flying in my stomach whenever we meet.. can still remember how we 2 used to hold hands and walked all the way to dazhong primary sch and once to westmall.. and how we two used to talk on the phone.. lol.. when he left for australia i was devastated.. my world came crushing down.. can still recall i spent the night crying to sappy love songs on the day he left.. awww... a short but sweet relationship.. just like how a first love shud be like.. till now whenever i hear i dun wanna miss a thing by aerosmith i will instinctly think of him.. QZ, if u are reading this, dun fly high high k.. :)
alrighty, got to stop here le.. if not i'm gg to be late!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, February 05, 2005 @1:25 AM
Hey guys, the following is plagiarized from someone's blog. forgive me man. -amen- added the comments in myself thou.
RAT 02/2/84 - 19/2/85
WOOD RAT THE WOOD MALE RAT
Is steadier, calmer & more confident than the other Rats. He is more confident of his abilities & his place in society, & is thus, not as susceptible to flattery as the others. As a result he will show more courage, & could be a lot more fun. But that does not mean he does not also have a gigantic ego.His greater tolerance for disapproval or criticism or disagreement merely takes second place to his fierce determination to be accepted in the company of those he wishes to identify with! Pander to this side of his social ambitions & you would have increased your chances of winning him!
THE WOOD FEMALE RAT
Is intensely aware of her image. (check! check! check!) But she is also more confident( i appear confident to most but i have my insecurities too) & more enchanting than her sister Rats. (who are my sister rats?) She is also more attractive(whee~!) & her sir of confidence borders on a certain hauteur(definitely!) & pomposity(i have a damn cavalier attitude at times).She will not hesitate to let you know what she cannot and will not tolerate!(damn palpable. people can read me like a book) To win her love, you must be prepared to adore her and massage her ego. (unquestionably true. somemore i'm a archetypical leo k)You must also be prepared to accept that she can be a nag. (i dun think i'm a nag.. cross!)
after reading this i'm like ya ya, so all the people my age are so the same? then wat really distinguishes me from my fellow rat friends? lol.. ok lar.. i got to admit some parts are quite true.
had my AA201 quiz today man. tot i know everything and capable of balancing my balance sheets coz i did all the practice sets and i was able to get most of the ans and i even manage to balance it! the only good thing was at least i manage to get the figure in my income statement correct. it was damn easy to complie the income statement tt i kep re-reading the question, thinking there might be some red herring. luckily there was none. think tt's the prob with weak students. u have the propensity to be too suspicious when u got the answer easily. LOL. hope i'll be able to at least get a b.. pls pls pls!!
darling's mum bought CNY's goods for my family. so pai seh man, coz i didnt buy anything at all.. but i got the intention lor.. think perhaps go chinatown tmr or wat to buy some stuff. darling's mum even bought abalone!! *faint* my mum was rather grumpy about the whole issue. coz she feels that me n dear's relationship has not progressed till the marriage stage so there's no need to buy stuff for each other's family. think mum would most prob buy some stuff tmr and ask me to give it to dear's family too.
woke up sleepily this morning. while bathing, my passion to be an air-stewardess was suddenly re-ignitiated. must be that day when i went to the airport to welcome dear back. it's true that not all the stewardess are pretty man. i think i can beat some of them, serious! somemore i saw one who is not even graceful. behaved a bit sloppily. perhaps she is the hai qu zi ma and spoiled SIA's reputation. while thinking i realised tt my chances are virtually zero. one thing is coz i've got a noticeable scar on my left leg. another issue is coz my eye degree is quite high. ya. my dreams were cruelly tarnished this way. if only i can figure some way to go for lasik. if only there are some ways to lighten my scar. if u hunks and babes have any suggestions to my woes pls let me know.. if not i guess i'll just have to stick to being an accoutant. being a make-up artist or hairstylist is not bad either. but the downside of these 2 jobs is the stagnant stigma that comes with it. people would just think that u are some stupid nut and were forced by circumstances to be in this line coz u do not have a damn fu*king cert. as a receptionist in REDS, i know this better than anyone. some customers really treated us like shit. they think they are some big f*ck just coz they hold some degree. the tot of being stereotyped and depised on really kills any of my remaining dwindling desires to be in this line of work.
guess it's time for my much needed beauty sleep now. dreaming of my shopping spree on sunday..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, February 03, 2005 @10:43 AM
ok, so wat happened at the airport wasnt exactly how i had planned it to be..
i kissed darling - check
he hugged me - unchecked
he twirled me ard - unchecked
we cried - unchecked
we went home - check
so wat happened tt day was i saw him looking for his bag, then when i saw him approaching the exit, i hid among the crowd. i wanted to see if he could spot me. just like in those movies u know, there's this girl or guy amongst the crowd and then this person would be looking ard and vioLA!! this person would notice this girl or guy in this luminous light and know tt this girl or guy would be the one. nope, tt didnt happen. he couldnt spot me. so while he was still searching for my face i just went behind him and said, darling.. [not in a whiny tone hor] lol.. and simply planted a kiss on his oily cheek. *wipe mouth* (sorry dear, u also know ur face is oily wat, right?) he then put his arms ard me and squeeze me. feel super protected and loved at that very moment.
been spending time with each other literally very second of the day, at the expense of my studies! but it's worth it man. i just like him to be physically beside me 24/7. he playing his game while me doing my studies. just like how a married couple would be.. -awwwwWwW- i would definitely wish to be married to darling.. i also wun deny the fact tt i'm very possessive of darling.. i dont want him to be snatched away from me!! not tt i have low confidence in myself, but what i have confidence in is the evil and slutty whore nature of some girls. wah lau, if u are 20 gg to 21 and haven meet some sluts like this before give urself a slap and wake up before ur guy is stolen away man. ok lar.. i also have confidence in dear, but i always believed in "prevention is better than cure" statement.
went to jack's place to have lunch yesterday. not tt i'm rich or anything like tt but coz i wanted to try out their student's set lunch. damn man. it only starts at 130 and we were there at like 12. piece of shit. went shop ard in plaza after lunch. went into mini toons and saw they are selling these little cute stickers! couldnt resist those extravagant wants but still bought them anyway. really need to control my spending le man.
been trying to save most of my pocket money these 2 weeks so that i can have more money to go shop for new year's clothes!! cant wait to shop!!
Quanzhou's back in Singapore by the way. qte keen on meeting him coz it's been like 6 to 7 years since we last met. wonder how he's like and stuff like this. but timing abit wrong, coz this week is my busiest week!! with tax quiz and accounting quiz. damn. hope i manage to catch up with him before he flies to china. -cross fingers-
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-