The Dollicious-Sinner

Friday, August 31, 2007 @9:42 AM

After the last blog, something happened and I learned why people feel sad at funeral. I dont know about you guys, but I guess it's that sense of helplessness of having to lose someone whom you love dearly. Would like to elaborate more on this, but somehow words have evaded my mind after a day of work.

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I dont know if you guys know this about me - I dream alot. Nope, not in the sense of building sandcastles in the air, but as in dreams that come to me while I was sleeping. Anyway mst of my dreams are extremely powerful and provoking. Most of my dreams never fail to evoke emotions out of me. There was this period of time when I kept dreaming of people dying. Not just strangers, but family members and friends. These are the kind of dreams I hate to have, because I always find myself crying badly when I woke up. Not only do I start crying uncontrollably, I also find myself trying to deal with the fear of losing the people around me. These dreams made me quite distressed and I decided to tell my mum about it. She has since placed an amulet above my bed and removed most of my soft toys.

Recently, the dreams I have are about things that I know are going to happen. For example, my maid who has been working for my fmaily for 7 to 8 years is finally going back to her homeland to get married. Initially, I thought I would feel nothing about her going back. However, that night, i dreamed that the next day is the day when she's finally going back for good. When I woke up, I was actually feeling kind of sad. As such, I realised that I'm going to miss her badly when she's gone! Therefore, I made a resolution to send her to the airport on Sunday morning regardless of how early her flight is and no matter how tired I feel when I wake up on an early Sunday morning.

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Been feeling under the weather for quite some time already. My flu/cold/fever attacks me on a fortnighly basis. Essentially, what I mean is after 2 weeks of recovery, I will fall sick again. After 3 visits to the doctor within 1 month, my doctor on my 3rd visit suggested that perhaps I should do a blood test to determine why I've been falling sick so often. It could be due to my blood count and stuff. So 2 days back when I fell sick, I decided to head to the nearest office clinic near my client's place and take a day off. I have also decided to do a blood-test and thus, I informed the doctor about it. That was after I've told her that I've been falling sick frequently for the past few months. To sum the whole episode briefly, I left the clinic feeling pissed. This was because not only did I fail to do a blood-test, I failed to take a day rest to recover. Below is a highlight of the interesting conversation between me n the doc:-

Doc: hmmm.. I can only deduce 2 main reasons to why you are falling sick so often.

Me: Ok, ya?

Doc: One, you are damn suay. Two, you are damn weak.

Me: ............ (speechless)

I swear these are the exact words she used on me! Following is another highlight:-

Doc: So do u need an MC? Personally, if you asked me, I dont think you are that weak to get an MC. But considering your line of profession, I know you guys feel tired. So if you want me to write you an MC i can do so.

Me: You are the doctor, you decide if I need an MC then.

Doc: Ya, like i said, i dont think you are that weak to get an MC, but if you to rest, I can write you one to cover you for the day.

Me: Fine, then I do not need an MC then.

It's like wtf la! Isnt she like suggesting that I want to chao keng?! TMD! I decided not to get an MC despite feeling feverish because she emphasized many times to me that feeling feverish does not mean I have a fever. A fever is only when your body temperature is above 37.5 degree celscius. In the end, her diagnosis was I have an allergy which I'm so totally not convinced! It's my own body, how can I not know? So she gave me this nasal spray which is meant for sinus and this medicine for me to clear my lungs. Under the advice of my colleague I deicded to give her the benefit of doubt. However, not only do I not feel any better after taking the medicine, my hands began to tremble. I have since stopped taking the medicine and shall be seeking a second opinion come tomorrow morning! Just so damn pissed! urgh!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Sunday, August 26, 2007 @7:11 AM

I guess it's PMS period currently. I get super irritated by the most trivial matters, like the way someone talks, the things that people say and do. It's frustrating! URGH! It's just like how u spend effort in trying to catch up with a friend online on MSN and you were the one shooting questions away while that unappreciative person could only manage curt replies. Irritated by the lukewarm responses, I decided to adopt a heck-care attitude in replying that's person's np-need-to-reply replies. Anyway, that person got offline and in that person's personal message was something mean, though I'm not sure if that person could be referring to me. Perhaps, similarly, the person could just be suffering from PMS as well.

Went to St James yesterday and managed to find my lost VIP card! YIPEE! While I was there last night, I saw this female despo who was dancing "seductively" to hook some loner/losers who is willing to be her one night stand buddy. It turns me off to see a woman behaving in such a demeaning manner. I personally think that a woman's self-worth is determined by how much she loves herself. As such, I'm quite against one night stands to a very large extent. Should someone decides to have a ONS, at least QC first ya?
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Time flies. I cant believe that my uncle has passed away for a week already. Since his demise, the mood at home has been relatively solemn. However, I'm glad that my parents are feeling much better now. It's extremely heart-wrenching at the last day of his funeral, seeing the way my mum cried. It was also the first time I've seen my dad teared. It made me sad for quite a while.

At the last day of his funeral, alot of people cried. While I must admit that I was not close to this uncle, I cried as well. I'm not sure if I cried because of the way that my mum was crying or because i feel sad that I may never see my uncle again and call him "ah peh" ever again. It's always at funeral that you tell yourself that you must learn to treasure the people around you, so that one day should that person leaves the world suddenly, you can tell yourself without any regrets that you have at least treated that person well. Disappointingly, this is purely a fleeting thought. Let's be honest here, how many a times have we tell ourselves that we must treasure the people around us, yet we find it such an uphill task. Here's an example: how many a times have you resolved to be nice to your parents and yet when they start to nag incessantly, you cant help but yell back at them to stop the nagging? Another example: how many a times have you decided to be sweeter and nicer to your bf/gf/friends and yet when they did something to piss you off (be it intentional or unintentional), you cant contain your anger and scolded them? Guess you guys get the drift ya? As such, here's a big shoutout to people whom I used to deem as enemies, "YOU ARE FORGIVEN!!" For people who are not sure if I considered you foe or friend, you can heave that very much deserved sigh of relief now!!
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To Nerdy Bob: After all the ups and downs, I'm positive about the direction of our relationship and I want to tell you what I love you! very very much! muach!!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Tuesday, August 14, 2007 @7:10 PM

Going to blog today because I'm on MC and there's nothing better to do, since I didnt bring back any work to do. Treated my family to lunch with my bonus at peony-jade restaurant. The food there is good and the whole damage to my wallet was $400+, but it was all worth it. When I paid for the treat with my own money, the feeling was indescriptable. Bought darling a nice watch too. :) :) :) I guess it all made up for all the last time when I didnt buy any birthday presents for him, yet he was always burning a hole in his pocket when he buys me present for my birthday.

Anyway, kind of lazy to blog, thus, decide to post some pictures of the treat instead of going on and on.. will post more pictures of me n my colleagues when I can blog using my office laptop..

Mum and my little sis. That's sharks' fins in the queer looking cup..

Softshell crab! It's definitely the best soft-shell crab I've eaten and totally so unlike those cheapo you eat in those Japanese restaurants..

This is fish.. forgot what fish.. The first taste was great, but the subsequent bites taste so-so only..

Didnt really take alot of pictures because we were damn hungry when we reached the restaurant. Besides these dishes, there was peking duck, noodles, cold dish etc.. The picture on top was our dessert.. Yummy yummy..

My handsome brother..

Finally, the time to pay. Bought this wallet using my bonus.. Decided to wait till a while before buying my bag.. Anyway, below are some random pictures that I digged up while looking through my pictures..

I treated dear to dinner at hogs breath at Chijmes to celebrate his good results.. The beef there is supposed to be good.. but I guess neither me nor dear could really appreciate it.. hahaha

Me posing with dear's drink..

Darling with his drink..

The beef that received many thumbs up review..

And finally, dear posing with the book he bought at Kinokuniya..

This picture was taken ages ago man.. Think when I was still schooling in NTU.. hahaha..

Guess that's all for this entry man.. nothing really informative.. hopefully the pictures suffice though..

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-