Sunday, May 29, 2005 @11:04 AM
reached lili's chalet at ard 12+. went sun-bathing immediately upon reaching.. but i still have uneven tan-lines!! gg sun bathing again. dun care! *pouts*
lili's friends started rriving at ard 5+, during this time me and gel were upstairs happily playing mahjong. i dunno muz of lili's friends anyway mahz.. the guys went crazy and wild upon learning the arrival of one of lili's cresent friends- samantha. dunno if u guys know her, but she's reported to be the next zhang ziyi. yeah. she looked prettier in real life, very very doll liked. pretty lar.. but not exactly gorgeous. the word gorgeous would suit another of lili's friend better-jacqueline also known as njc prom queen. i only saw her pics before but she's damn pretty pretty pretty!! gel told me she's rich, smart and literally every positive nouns u can think of.. but she's a really very nice and friendly person. no airs, no nothing. yupz. i always thought that when i speak english, my standard is still ok.. but when i talked to her, she really put me to shame. *sighz* i can say she's quite the perfect girl. even yuanxiong was dead smitten by her. said she got electrifying eyes. hahaha...
saw the amount of pressies lili collected!! envy!! after going to both yuehong and lili's chalet, i felt a teeny weeny bit tempted to hold a chalet for my birthday too.. haha.. loads of pressies.. lol..perhaps i should only invite people who will give me presents hor.. hahahaha...
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, May 27, 2005 @8:47 PM
tmr's lili's bday!! going to sun-tan with gel tomorrow!! so happy!! i've been dying to go tanning man!!
went bugis today to shop for lili's pressie. decided to buy her a voucher for manicure and pedicure since she has never done it before.. ex lar.. but worth it coz lili is such a nice and lovable person!! but poor darling has to fork out his money for the present coz me super broke. but i'll pay u back k darling?? hee~
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@12:00 AM
pls enlighten me holy one. when 2 people get together, does it mark the loss of freedom the 2 persons owe? if not, y does the bf/gf gets angry when their bf/gf gets to know someone of the opposite gender? y the existence of the word compromise?
after my ultimate with rudy, i told myself that i must never sacrifice all my happiness for one guy again. i always thought that 2 people got together coz they can enhance each other's personality, brings about sincere and pure companionship, not restrictions or sadness. y should u force ur partner to forego his/her happiness just coz u are unhappy about the thing that he/she is doing? should that really be the case when 2 people get together? if tt's the case, then y even marry, or rather, y even be together at all? sometime i wonder if it's because i am a selfish freak and hence, my thinking. but heck, i dun think so. let me give an extreme analogy. 2 blind people happened to fall in love and get married. one day, the wife got a call from the doctor claiming that he had a suitable eye cornea for her. delighted, she shared the piece of good news with her husband. the husband, while happy for her, had his own insecurities. he wondered," now tt she can see, she will definitely find someone else. now people will pay more attention to her compared to the past." the wife felt upset about the whole issue and thus decided not to have the operation anymore. isnt this stupid? this is your own life dammit! y shud we always live for other people? y shud we always take into consideration other people's feelings? we live our life once for goodness sake!! i dun believe in changing for the others. i dun believe in changing my life for another person. i dun want to lie on my dying bed and regretted the things i wanted to do but never did. what if i died in an accident tomorrow? i dun want to go up to heaven and when reflecting about my life, realised tt i have been living for the others. i dun want to then think that aiyah, if only what what what.. i dun want to have any regrets! i am not a wei da de ren. maybe u guys will think that i am a bad gf. yes. that's the truth. maybe that explains y a person who loves me deeply will inevitably leave me. i'm not cynical. sometimes i lied on my bed and i pondered if i ever did enough for my darling. i know he treats me very well. deep down in my heart i know that i am not the one for him. he really deserves someone much much better than me. we are so different yet so similar. the things that i love doing turns him off. i like clubbing but he doesnt. i want to go tanning with my jc friends, yet i know he's unhappy about this issue. i damn well wanted to compromise, but i just cannot bring myself to do it. i was on the verge of saying things like i promise u i wun do it again and stuff like this but i couldnt do it. because i know i cant do it. i dun want to lie to him. u guys may think i am a selfish bitch. i admit i am. i'm still young. i dun want to give up all my fun. to put it crudely i dunno if me and dear are going to last at all. what of one day we really break off and by then i was already 26, 27? wouldnt tt be too old to revive what i had lost? i dun want that. yet at the same time i really do not wnat to lose him. i dunno what i should do. wouldnt things be simpler and easier if he trusts me??
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, May 26, 2005 @11:01 AM
went shopping with lili yesterday as she wanted to buy jimmy a bday present. met up with gel along the way to town. she looked terrible. terrible as in despondent. hope she's feeling better already. anyway lili bought this liverpool jersey for jimmy. i think the price is simply ridiculous. guys must be really insame to want to spend $100+ bucks on just a tee. damn. bought this pair of shades on our way out of peninsular plaza. the shades are damn nice and cheap cheap! even lili couldnt resist buying one pair. i bought this pair of shades (something like what sylvester always wear) for only $15! lili bought this supremely retro shades. it's those very large shades with white frame. she looks damn cute! top her look with a bandanna and she would look like she's from the 80's. hahaha. too bad i have no camera to take a pic and show u guys.. :(
sat is lili's birthday! she will be booking into the chalet tomorrow thou. very tempted to check in early with her coz then can go tanning! gel and jaslyn will be there too. somemore gel wants to swim.. heehee. alrighty! update u guys on more details later!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, May 24, 2005 @9:24 PM
went to sentosa yesterday to celebration martin's 21st 2nd birthday!! it was fun fun fun!!
meet up with them at harbourfront. saw junyong first. was so happy to see him coz i think it's been 2-3 years since we last met! u guys shud know tt from my jc days, he'a always been the butt of all my jokes. we bickered all the time. so yesterday was no difference. we guys teased him like mad.. lol.. present yesterday was Winston white, winston black, jeremy jan, kk (both of them were late as usual), sipei and gillian.
play beach volleyball with strangers. very fun!! went sun-tanning with jan when she arrived. barely into our tanning session, martin asked us guys to gather coz he organised some games for us to play. his sec sch friends were there also mahz. play some silly games like dog and bone, wacko, "musical chair" and captain's ball. think the most exciting game got to be "musical chairs". coz u dunno when the music is gg to stop. i got sabotaged by winston black and desman (martin's sec sch friend). but all in the name of fun mahz! martin also kena forfeit. jan came up with this idea whereby he had to climbed up a short tree and shout frantically "help me! help me!" lol. loads of people turned to look at him lor. we guys pretended we didnt know him after that. hahaha..
time passed quite fast lar.. after cleaning ourselves up we went back to martin's suite to chill out and wait for the pizzas to arrive. as usual, junyong became the butt of our jokes again. anyway speaking of winston black, he really looks like qi yuwu now!! shuai!! haha.. suddenly remembered his pants split into half when we were doing some volleyall passing. hahahaa.. after dinner and the cake ceremony we guys settled down and chill out before going home. made a pact with one another to try to come down to sentosa at least once a month and hopefully be able to rent the suite once a year as gathering.. feel so blessed to have such fun-loving friends...
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, May 22, 2005 @9:47 PM
yuehong's bday yesterday was indeed entertaining. he got drunk. haha. keep saying the same 2 sentences repeatedly. if he was not saying i'm dead pissed drunk, he would be saying wo yao si le. so damn funny. he's also our mr vain. kept shouting for people to tell him where the camera is and he will then pose and smile just for the camera. lol. yesterday was indeed a day where our impression of him changed so muz for the better. he can be a real fun person to hang out with.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, May 21, 2005 @1:36 PM
martin held his bday celebration at chinablack last night. didnt want to go coz i can foreseen that it will be very very the sianz. decided to go in the end coz want to give face mahz. WRONG MOVE! it was even more sianz then i thought of it to be. asked us to reacha t 930. but we wnded up waiting for an hour plus before we can go in. somemore we still have to pay cover charge and for alcohol that he will be ordering! i see no point lor. coz if u are not really tt very the rich u shud not hold ur celebration this way then. might as well use the money for some chalet or buffet ya? anyway he got this sec sch female friend, cat. interacted with her once at martin's hse during cny. she got dead drunk can. the worst thing is none of her female friends wanted to help her at all. her guys friends then asked me for help coz the guy friends knew me at martin's hse too. think they are desperate for some female help. for ur information she was wearing a skirt. and she go light till no one want to see le. wah lau, one shud never wear skirt to club lor, unless u know u wun get drunk lar. but i know it's very hard to control ur drinking once u are inside and the music gets damn nice. in a nutshell, i sent the girl home together with 2 other guy friends and even had to clean her up. luckily her parents were not around. i think she really owe me a treat for helping her lor. it's just so sad that none of the female friends came up to help her. one even gave a very weak reason that she got work tomorrow. WTF.
anyway got to saw sipei yesterday when she went to martin's party as well. she got her eyes lasik!! told me ard $1350 per eye.. cheap cheap!! i want go do as well!! decided to ask my mother to pay for my lasik as my bday present. so.. sorry guys! i dun think i will hold any birthday celebration. i think it's so damn to hold one as well. i mean birthday shud be all abt urself. y even spend the money for pple to wat and blah blah blah. i rather spend the money on myself man. but u guys can still buy me a pressie k??
gg yuehong's bday celebration later. haha. been playing mahjong with him and lili lately. haha. he's like our cai shen yan. always lose money to us.. hahaha..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, May 19, 2005 @12:32 AM
ok. haven been blogging lately coz i dun feel like it. simple as that. haha. lazy lar. addicted to level-ing up at maple. decide to use the time available to level up instead of blogging. haha.
been doing nothing much these few days except to attend ge lessons, play mahjong, shop and playing maple. lifeless. no more clubbing. seriously broke. gg chinablack this fri coz it's martin's bday, sat will be yuehong's bdae, monday gg sentosa to celebrate martin's bday again.. next sat lili's bday!! so many pressies to buy!! dead broke.
saw this pair of slip-on in mag and thus headed to far east. but.. no more stock!! TAMADE! ok. was leaving when this particular mini skirt caught my attention. dear said it looked damn short but good on me. haha. it is really a tad too short but i bought it anyway. i have the legs so y not? haha. notice i didnt say beautiful legs. so stop puking k! pai seh no pics to show. hmm.. time to buy digicam le!! perhaps should include that as one of my most desired bday pressies. catch the hint guys?
been skipping ge lecture coz i have no desire to even see big red mouth. deliberately skipped her lecture yet i made my presence prominent while waiting outside classroom for her to unlock the doors. think she should notice it since she is damn freaking prejudiced against me, for no good damn reason. she must be jealous. haha. hmm.. luckily have a different tutor for ge tutorial. think this tutor damn zai. like her a lot! very patient, understanding and encouraging. most importantly, she speaks flawless english. went through some vowels lessons and realised that some of the most common words that we used are actually pronounced wrongly all the time. should really brush up on my speaking skills.
rudy smsed me the other day. i think it was some kind of forwarded sms asking me for some stupid answer and i'm supposed to send him back the answer. cant be bothered to even read the sms. till now, i still think he's a bastard. a damn loser. still remembered when we were together, he forbidded me to chat with qz online, chat with ck or even sms and talk to other guys! siao. but aiyah, i was just stupid to listen to him. i bet he even forbids his present gf to do the same things. yet on the other hand, he happily can sms me and sometimes like asked me how i'm doing. fuck him. ccb. sorry cant help but scolding vulgarities. he's one person i will never ever forgive in my entire life.
shall stop here. night.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 @11:56 AM
GE started yesterday. was late for class, but i think i was polite enough to walk big round to enter the LT thru the back door instead of the front door. went in together with lili. was fucking disgusted by the FAT tutor's attitude. the moment we entered the LT, she was like there are notes over there (pointing to the left side of the LT) and come sit here(pointing to the 2 empty seats beside her) it was already very bad to command us already. wtf, we are already 21 years old! ok, i'll let that pass. but then we realised there were no notes at all on the left! we then realised that she had placed them on the right hand side of the LT instead and we proceed to collect the notes. as we were walking to collect our notes, she went again, "EXCUSE ME! I SAID SIT HERE!" FUCK HER LAR! KNNBCCB. i was really damn furious. by then another guy shouted out, there are no more notes here, it's at the other side. *silence* i feel totally humiliated by her ridiculous outburst. we are young adults and we have a mind of our owns. who the fuck she is to shout at us in this manner without getting her facts right. even my parents dont do that, so who the hell do u think you are. FUCK U FUCK U FUCK U! the worse thing was we were not the latest students to arrive. students who came in later than her was politely received by her. i will definitely fail her evaluation form. i swear to god i will fail her miserably. the title of this GE is "speaking with confidence" hearing her speak is pure agony. she puts on bright red lipstick on her freaking big lips. made her look like some kind of desperate whore. imagine yourself looking at her red lips everytime she talks. i'm sure u will feel like puking. the most irony thing is she cant even pronounce the word public properly. she will pronounce it as park-blic. (cant find the correct spelling) in a nutshell, she speaks as thou there are phelgm stuck in her nostrils. she's just so lucky she does not have to speak to get her degree, otherwise i'm sure she will nv pass.
had dinner with the E1 guys. only a handful turned out thou. watched kingdom of heaven after that. thou the movie was kind of chim, i thought it was good and captivating. Ruihang treated us to the movie anyway. ahahaha. it was so nice of him! realised that he is going to australia to study soon. we will really miss him!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, May 08, 2005 @9:08 AM
hey guys! take a look at my profile ya. included something new.. hahaha.. anyway for bloggers who want to include this in their blogs as well, u guys can just click on the image and u will be directed there straight. hahaha. a good way to indirectly remind people of your special day. (more pressies!!)
my maid was telling me the other day that a flasher had appear at my void deck! and that pervert had flashed himself to my maid's friend. later on when i went down with my maid, the man was still loitering the area!! he is an indian, think around 30+, 40. he was carrying a helmet and wearing white polo shirt with dark-coloured pants. anyway i called the neighbourhood police to inform the police about it. (good citizen k?!?! i was in the npcc man.) the most disappointing thing was they told me that they could not arrest the guy for it was not the victim herself who reported the case. they told me the most is to increase patrol in the vicinity. till now i have yet to see any policeman in this area. wth. so guys, if u are coming to my house, beware k! dun even try to want kick his kukujiao or retaliate. HE HAS A FREAKING HELMET! he could simply knocked u out cold with one swing of tt helmet. yupz. that's how dangerous he is.
Today's mother day! Happy Mother's Day!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, May 07, 2005 @1:19 PM
Haha. loads of compliments regarding my new blogskin!! so damn proud! love this blogskin to bits! been wanting to use it a long time ago but was just plain lazy to do so.. till now.. haha. will definitely make more changes to it. *yawnz*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, May 06, 2005 @9:02 AM
bored! simply bored! been playing mahjong these few days. went clubing again on wed at zouk. it was fun! to think all along i thought that mambo night are meant for young people. ahahaha. had a fair been of shots at double o before heading down to zouk. anyway i saw boon song. he was my first crush after rudy aka the scholar of PJC. ahahaha. anyway i ddint see him till zan told me and he did sms me after that asking me if i was outside double o. think he wanted to confirm my identity. surprised he still had my number after so long. (i dun have his number anymore thou.. lol) both zan and kailing got picked up by guys. hahaha. got ah moh asked me if i was a model.. hahaha.. wth.. i didnt know i was so damn chio.. lol
went to lili's place to play mahjong yesterday. it was fun. of coz lar, since i won the most. play with her niece samantha! she's just so so cute!! love her to bits. she's not shy around strangers and she allows u to carry her even though she does not know u. so cute!!
so sianz man. GE is going to start soon. *yawn* this hols is going to be my last! next hols i'll be doing my PA le aftter which will be graduation!! *sobz*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-