Tuesday, May 30, 2006 @8:32 AM
Went shopping with Zan today at Bugis and bought quite a few stuff despite shopping with Xinyu in Bugis too just a few days back. Among my spree were belt, shorts, bag and a top.
Worklife is looming round the corner with each ticking second. Getting increasingly stressed and frightened at the prospect of the late nights, the lack of social life, the pimples outbreak with the amount of stress I have to deal with. I'm seriously contemplating to change to another job, where I know I'll be happier. Honestly speaking, I dont think I'm suitable for an auditing job. I'm too fun-loving I think. I was thinking of what other options I have and I made up my mind to at least go try be an air stewardess. It'e been my dream to be one since secondary school days. If I dont get in, then I'll have to resign to my fate. If I'm really that lucky to get selected, I think there are still other factors that have to be weighed, such as the job prospect and life after flying. Ecen so, I still have to cross my parents' hurdle since I think they would disagree. They have always thought that flying is a dangerous job. On top of this, they invested money in me to get a degree and instead of utilising the degree, I choose to throw their hard-earned money away. Whatever it is, I'm going to try, in the name of experience.
Anyway. I adore gray! It's such a gorgeous colour. *love*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@8:32 AM
Went shopping with Zan today at Bugis and bought quite a few stuff despite shopping with Xinyu in Bugis too just a few days back. Among my spree were belt, shorts, bag and a top.
Worklife is looming round the corner with each ticking second. Getting increasingly stressed and frightened at the prospect of the late nights, the lack of social life, the pimples outbreak with the amount of stress I have to deal with. I'm seriously contemplating to change to another job, where I know I'll be happier. Honestly speaking, I dont think I'm suitable for an auditing job. I'm too fun-loving I think. I was thinking of what other options I have and I made up my mind to at least go try be an air stewardess. It'e been my dream to be one since secondary school days. If I dont get in, then I'll have to resign to my fate. If I'm really that lucky to get selected, I think there are still other factors that have to be weighed, such as the job prospect and life after flying. Ecen so, I still have to cross my parents' hurdle since I think they would disagree. They have always thought that flying is a dangerous job. On top of this, they invested money in me to get a degree and instead of utilising the degree, I choose to throw their hard-earned money away. Whatever it is, I'm going to try, in the name of experience.
Anyway. I adore gray! It's such a gorgeous colour. *love*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Monday, May 29, 2006 @10:51 PM
In times of an essential verbal vomit, I realise I miss ANG KAILING alot alot!! Guess I have to wait for another 4 more weeks before she would be back.
Thinking of buying a damn large photoframe so that I would be able to put in pictures of all my dearest treasures - family, dear and friends!
I wanted to blog a very long entry to while my time away, but I realise that I do not have much to blog about.. *yawn*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, May 27, 2006 @11:33 PM
There's this adage "People changes with time", or perhaps they do not.
I was chatting with this friend of mine yesterday. I thought he had grown more mature and realistic with time. Apparently he has not.
I remembered when I was in my first year in Uni, he scorned at my lousy results. He said he would definitely do better than me and get into the dean's list. I rolled my eyes. I know it was another mindless boosting. I can recall the times in JC when most of my classmates felt damn pissed over his numerous "substantial" boostings.
So, I saw him online yesterday and we were just chatting about our lifes in general. Nonetheless, I decided to let him have a taste of his own medicine and asked him about his results even though I know how "well" he did. The following is a dialogue of our msn chat.
me: so u r gg to specialise in bnf?
him: ya.. but dunno results can ma
me: I heard from my friends that the papers were ok lehz
him: ya la.. that's y all the more worried ma.. means more people would be able to do well
me: I thought u said u r aiming for first class honours?
him: aiyah.. results does not mean anything what.. ask yourself honestly lar
me: Hmm.. For acc maybe not coz most of us would be entering the big 4 ma.. for BnF i'm not so sure..
him: u gg kp right?
me: ya..
him: no offence la.. but go big 4 also no point.. max give u 3.5k only (and some other similar remarks I cant remember)
me: not exactly la..
him: lesser right?
At this point of time, I was kinda fuming already.. I mean who does he think he really is when he has lousy results and no job security and here he is kb-ing to me about my pathetic profession and pay. To top it off, I dont think he comes across as intelligent. His only intelligence to me is being extremely insensitive and someone who purely cant wait to suck ur money dry when gambling with you.
me: I know u n XX have the same thinking..
him: rite
me: no offence either, but sometimes I think u shud consider your own capabilities first before aiming for the stars.
At this point of time, as if on cue, my connection was cut off.
Reflecting on what I've said, I dont regret it and I mean every bit of it. Everybody dreams of making it big one day. However, what is the point of aiming for the stars when you lack the ability to reach for them? It's good to have goals, but I believe goals should be realistic and practical. Considering that fact that he has yet to graduate and secure a job, I feel insulted to be looked down by him, who is a mere nobody. In life, there is no shortcut to making in big. It takes a hell of hard work and attempts, as well as some IQ and EQ. I'm not being mean here, but I think he lacks the proper aptitide and attitude to bring him to within reach of the stars.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, May 25, 2006 @7:34 PM
Humans are contradicting creatures. When we feel bored, we yearn for companionship. Yet, too much time spent with the same person leads to conflicts. Both my sister and Xinyu attested to the previous statement wholeheartedly.
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I remembered a friend once told me something about competition. Whether he applied to his life I do not know. He said, "With competition, there would be improvement." I cant agree more. I do not see anything wrong with being competitive as long as you know the reasons to what you are competing against for. Whoever dares to judge are people who fear you will succeed, who feared they theirselves would be left behind in the rat-race. The word competitive has a stigma associated with it. However, I'm beginning to see the word in a new, positive light.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Wednesday, May 24, 2006 @7:56 AM
Back from HK for about a week already, yet my voicebox is still on its way to a slow recovery! HK indeed lives up to her label as a shopping paradise, but I'm not so sure about her being a food paradise though. I still think Singapore's dim sum is much much better, in terms of quality and services.
Watched The Da Vinci Code today. Sadly, I think the book is definitely much more interesting. But this should be nothing surprising I guess.. Harry Potter movie failed to bring out the excitement that goes on in the book as well. Headed to the library to want to find out more about it and dear said I was overly obsessed. I now see Leonardo Da Vinci in a new light. In the past, I thought he was simply a mere artist who got famous. Anyway, for people who are utterly bored this holidays, give the book a good read. You will regret it if u missed it!!
Kailing is off to Europe for 5 weeks! It's been only 4 days and I miss her like crazy! I think she was so sweet to sms me to take care before she left.. I MISS YOU BABE!! Cant wait for you to come back and update me with your happening 5 weeks. Hope you find one hell of a gorgeous ang moh there.. lol..
One more month and I have to say goodbye to my freedom soon.. Meanwhile, I'm looking for a part-time job to earn some cash and of course to earn some experience that I know I will never gain as an auditor.. Hmm..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Wednesday, May 10, 2006 @5:20 AM
Today is my last day of school, "officially". That's provided if I dont dapao my 306. As my exam script was collected today, a wave of realisation hit me. I realised that this will be my last time in this examination hall. I could feel some tears stuck in my throat. I felt foolish, but that's me for you.. I'm just such a sentimental babe.. *sob*
Yesterday for the very first time throughout my NTU life, I cried the whole of the morning over an exam. I feel like the hard work wasnt worth it. I think i seriously lacked exams luck. Looking back on the 3 years in NTU, I realised that I was my happiest in Year 1. Though my results sucked, I was happy. Progressively, though my results improved by leaps and bounds, I became increasingly unhappy. I dont know why. Needless to say, this semester is the worst semester of my life, for very obvious reasons. Friendships broke up, hidden conflicts started to surface, tons of misunderstanding that wasnt really clarified and a warrented apology that never came my way. Despite the hard work thrown into doing FYP, the grade that I wanted so badly failed to present itself. And of course finally, the exams on Monday. This semester was a semester full of nightmares too. Just the other night, I dreamt that a family of 5 jumped to death right before my very eyes. Kailing told me I should go pray. I told her that there would be a furtile effort because my paresnt have placed an amulet at the head of my bed since a long time ago when I have nightmares as well, but the nightmares never go away. I always dream of people dying either of terminal illness or jumping to their deaths right before me (and it wasnt that one time).
Nonetheless, this semester wasnt without any goodness in it. I made more friends, I made some really good friends who were there for me, who consoled me when I was down and was just there to hear me bitch about life.
As my life in NTU comes to a close, I know I have definitely made some nice friends. You know who you are. Keep in touch people. And of course for some, see you when work starts. *wink*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Monday, May 08, 2006 @2:23 AM
A spate of bad incidents have been happening to me! Just what the heck is going on?!?!
I totally screwed up today's paper. Most ironically, the paper wasnt even hard. The most jinx-ing thing is those I've never expected to come out actually came out for the exams question!! It is totally tamade chou ji dan! I guess the only good thing that happened was the $600 progress package. And of course, I have nerdy bob and kailing (meaningless chatting sessions and tons of gossips = an outlet for stress relief) to tide this difficult period of time with me.
One more paper to go. I wonder if it will be as bad, or worse.
On an irrelevant note, I'm not anti-social.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, May 02, 2006 @1:16 AM
Damn. Today's paper was crap. Did 3/4 questions! Think I'm one of the handful who couldnt complete the paper. And this is only the first paper.. Is this an omen?
Reached home and as I approached the lifts, I realised both lifts were out of order. Bloody hell. I had to climbed the stairs all the way to my house which is the 16th level. Not a very good day afterall.
Worse, maid went back to the Phillippines yesterday for 2 weeks. I'm tasked to make my own bed, wash my own laundry, wash my own utensils. What a waste of time.
Tons of catching up on studies. Tired, but cant get to sleep. WTH....
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-