Thursday, June 30, 2005 @10:18 AM
yesterday was the first time i sat in a BMW and most prob a 7 series.. didnt dare to look.. lol.. felt exonerated when lili commented that angela tan was very nice! both me and gel wanted her to be our FYP tutor one mahz. *phew* anyway angela tan treated us to lunch and desserts.
went shopping after that with dear. it was supposed to be a sponsored trip but i ended up paying for my own purchases while he blew $164 in topshop alone. must be my influence. lol. kept psycho-ing him that he ought to get new clothes coz sch is gg to start! he was relunctant to spend the money.. dun u think dear is so crazy? he rather spend the money on me than spend on himself.. madness! i can nv make such a big sacrifice for him man.. dinner at crystal jade was on him and finally a top at m)phosis. wanted to get this three-quarts at mango.. but size 32 is tight and size 36 is too loose.. damn.. 34 sold out liao.. it's really a gd bargain lor.. it's only gg at $36.. damn.. shall go back later and have a look.. tmr will be gg to bugis to shop! heard abt the mickey mouse shop from friends.. it's time i go take a look man.. how can i possibly miss out on good stuff? it better be authentic man.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Monday, June 27, 2005 @1:55 PM
for some weird reason, our wonderful friendship has escalated into something superficial and awkward. I dunno how it happened and when it happened. i find myself reading between ur lines for everything that you had said. i cant cease doubting you. i hate myself for doing this. but i guess i just have to. i cant be myself around you anymore. it's sad that our friendship has become something so superficial. it's as though you are lurking in some dark corner, watching my every micro movements. crossing your fingers and praying hard for me to fall. the scary thing is i know u will not be there to catch me when i fall. the irony is u know i will be there to catch u when u fall. what a stupid person i am.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@9:27 AM
Lesson #2
Some people are so blinded in their pursue of solid hard cash that they forgot what constitutes real friendship.
Anyway, been planning my birthday chalet. sorta dread coming up with the namelist coz i really dunno who i ought to invite.. without my uni friends, i already have a list of 50+ people.. with my uni friends i think the number will up to around 80 pple. this is just so hard man.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, June 26, 2005 @10:48 AM
finally booked my chalet le!! thanks to my cousin eve and my uncle! cousin eve is so nice! offer to help me buy stuff at real low prices!! eg ben and jerry's ice cream, cheesy hot dog.. lots more! even volunteer to help me collect my cake that day!! so nice!! really wanted to go shanghai with her but i guess i better not spoil her er ren si jie with her hubby!
the chalet will be on 22nd to 24th july.. 3 days 2 nights.. but the cut cake ceremony and stuff will be on sat.. but hey guys if u wanna come over stay in to acc me u are more than welcome to do so!
so excited! gonna re-do my namelist coz i guess i might not want it to be too crowded considering that i will hold the celebration with relatives as well.. gonna come up with a list of food, miscellaneous stuff and of coz gonna shop for nice clothes to wear that day.. nothing too elaborate thou.. my mum's so wonderful man!!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, June 25, 2005 @10:49 AM
FReak! It's pouring!! that leaves me with no other options at all!! means no shopping alone either! FREAK!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@10:26 AM
I'm all alone at home!! I've nothing to do!! Dear already told he's gg to maple all day long.. suzan is not free today and xinyu is missing in action currently.. most of my JC friends are not free too.. so cant really play mahjong.. go out also a bit the weird coz too little pple.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To think i thought i can go shopping today! coz dear was so nice to give me his atm card.. it's really a shopping spree man! but i'm alone!! TAMADE!
Sighz.. anyway planning a chalet for my birthday.. the thing is no one can help me book! means i cant get the discounted price and it's damn freaking ex! i know i'm not the one paying but heartache man! since i'm such a procransinator (spelling chk) i might just let it drag and soon my birthday will be over without much ado fuss.. whatever it is, i know what my gift from my parents will be le.. *grinz* i'm gonna choose the biggest rock man.. diamonds are all girls' best friend... hahahaha.... ok.. better get to work soon.. think i go ring up ecp main office and ask them abt reservations.... and rot after that............................
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, June 24, 2005 @1:53 PM
that loser bastard couldnt just leave me alone. i hate him and seriously i wished him dead. my hatred for him will never ever go away. everytime i think of the misery he caused me, my blood continues boiling. he has a pretty gf now. so why must him still sms me? afterall, he was the one who asked me never to sms him again when all i wanted was friendship. so y is he eating his words now? everytime my hp vibrates and i saw his name i feel like throwing my damn hp against the wall, at the same time wishing it's his head i'm throwing and smashing. anyway he forwarded me a rather harmless sms. but revenge is on my mind. i just want to reply something mean, nasty and sarcastic. subtle enough to spoil his whole day. his sms went like this, "sweet candies are nice to eat, sweet words are easy to say, but sweet people are hard to find. oh my gosh, how did u find me? nightz!" i simply feel like puking. sweet? urgh. he's fucking gross. the following are some of our exchanges over sms. read my sms with a sarcastic tone ya..
me: lol.. weird.. i nv tot of u as sweet before. haha. night. (i ended my sentences with . instead of ..)
him: stop lying.. haha.. when u graduating?
me: stop flirting lar. next year.
him: i'm not! just stating a fact.. u're in acc right? how long's the course? direct honours?
me: y? u gg there mehz?
him: considering whether to study locally or overseas
me: oh. but i think the interview for poly students is over.
him: i'm talking abt next year la.. ya, i got a place in uk already. but see if it's better to try locally lor
me: WOW! your grades must be damn good to try local uni. ur gf gg with u ah?
him: ya.. most prob. you havent ans my qn lei. how long the course and is it firect honours?
me: lol.. aiyah if u r helping ur gf to ask just tell me straight lar. 3 years and yes direct honours.
him: i'm asking for myself la.. u always looking down on me. lol.. gonna sleep now. nitez!
me: haha.. oops.. night
judging from his reply i know he sipei tulan le. but i could feel an unexplainable happiness. dun ask me how i know he's pissed off. dun forget we were together for 3 years after all. in actual fact, i've never look down on him before. he was the one who was always so sensitive, so eager to show what a man he was. just like a dog who's eager for a bone. revenge is indeed sweet coz i know i had spoiled his day. this feeling is however insatiable. right down, i despise him for all his actions. for all the fucking betrayal. regardless to me or his present gf. the fact that he smsed me this kind of sickening sms when he's with his gf show what kind of a bastard he is. and this is not the first time. and this is not the most mushy sms he had ever sent me since he's with his gf. i cant wait for the day where he suffers. i hate him and i hope he knows that. i hope he will NEVER find a day of happiness in his life. not even a tinge of happiness. it's not that i'm not gracious. it's because he deserves it.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Thursday, June 23, 2005 @10:19 AM
what a long, arduous and painful night. couldnt curb my recursive tossing and turning in bed. it really was a damn hot night despite the steady drone of the fan.. argh!
No programs today.. guess it's either shopping or mahjong.. either one is's both sponsored by dear.. lol.. *sianz*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Wednesday, June 22, 2005 @11:56 PM
Reckon i shud number the lessons as i grow up.. haha..
Lesson#1
If u want something done then do it. Stop all those damn shitty air-talk. And stop giving fucking lame reasons that u might find it hard to believe too. There cant be too much of a coincidence man. Facts have already proven otherwise as concluded by my dearest friend Kailing.
Went to watch Mr and Mrs Smith today. Angelina Jolie is gorgeous.. I wanna look like her! she has sexy lips and memerising cum electrifying eyes.. yummy.. i wanna eat her up too if i were a guy!
Was really touched at darling's concern for me today when he knew i was down with flu.. love him to bits! we should never take this little things for granted man.. on the surface, i may be the one who's wearing the pants in the relationship.. but unknown to many people, he had really made me a better person and taught me a lot of things.. the thing about karma is true.. treat people the way u want to be treated.. it sounds hackneyed but heck that.. i can say among all my relationships, my relationship with him is the healthiest and happiest.. we quarraled only like once a month.. that's very good le right?! i just love him to bits.. being with him is the happiest time of my life! *I love u dear!*
alrighty.. gonna pop 2 panadols now and head to dreamland.. not before i give my darling a call..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@9:36 AM
sometimes i wonder if it's because i often imposed my expectations on people, that's y i'm left disappointed. i also do not know if i's because i'm someone who is willing to go all out for a friend and that's y i expect my friends to reciprocate the same thing. perhaps there are really no real tangible people called friends. perhaps they are your friends coz of the thing people nowadays believe piously - networking. i cant help but being damn freaking cycnical. On another hand, what William said was correct.. all the trivial matters have a way of snowballing into something BIG. perhaps that explained my acrimonious entry today.. thinking back, i realised people around me have been singing me the same tune but it's just that i refused to be taken in coz i always believe in my own judgement. i always thought i'm damn mighty zai, can frequently judge people accurately. BUT i was wrong.
I wonder y people like to complain so much. no doubt i'm one of those complain queens but i only complain to dear.. i think it's very wrong to go complain about ur unhappiness with one person to a 3rd person who is close to the 2 of u. luckily the 3rd person was fair enough to call me and asked me what happened. after listening to what she was being told, i got kind of angry coz the facts are twisted. if the facts were correct i will keep mum and try to understand maybe a different perspective. let's just say i'm very disppointed with that person. i discovered how selfish and self-centred the person is. self-centred was not the term used by me but the 3rd party upon knowing what really took place.
on a lighter tone, yesterday can be considered screwed-up day. cant get the timetable that i wanted. ended up with a tamade 5 day week. seriously i damn fucking sick of all the unfairness. I always plan the fucking timetable YET i was nv the one who got the ideal timetable. at least i was the one who at least care enough to come up with a backup timetable. STILL, FUCKING STILL, i cant get it. KNNBCCB. talk about fairness. I HAD ENOUGH! this is not the first time le.. anyway got to thank dear for helping me bid man.. despite the clamour he mangaed to help me register into one of the ideal time slots.. when i was feeling down yesterday he was there to give me moral support, console and help me! thanks dear! and xinyu too! *HUGZ* Xinyu is my damn solid friend. she always has a knack to know when i'm feeling down and she will then call me. me too.. coz i always save her from boredom. hahahaha..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Monday, June 20, 2005 @9:45 AM
Bought a chocolate cake from four leaves yesterday to celebrate father's day. my sister who is still angry at us, refused to share the cost of the cake.. i think that was rather petty of her coz she has been angry at us for ard 1 week plus le! anyway the cake was fabulous and all of us had a second helping. *slurpz*
dunno what to do with my free time later man.. but guess i shall see how things go..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Sunday, June 19, 2005 @10:02 AM
alrighty.. just finished reading Alice's adventures in Wonderland. borrowed it from the library coz i realised that i had nv completed reading the story except the extract from pets worksheet during pri sch. somemore was kinda sick with romance. i love fantasies stories.. stories about wizardry and magic.. anyway was kind of disappointed with the story.. it kinda sucks i think.. had a hard time reading it.. paled in comparisom with the book "Solitaire Mystery" nonetheless, below is one extract from the nook that got me a bit tickled. lol.
"And how many hours a day did u do lessons?" said Alice, in a hurry to change the subject.
"Ten hours the first day," said the Mock Turtle, "nine the next and so on."
"What a curious plan!" exclaimed Alice.
"That's the reason they've called lessons," the Gryphon remarked,"because they lessen from day to day."
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
@8:03 AM
yesterday was my niece's birthday. was really really very fun. initially wanted to go tanning but reached my cousin's place at only 3. so not much sun le lar.. decided to go swimming with all my little cousins and my youngest sister. it's been a really long time since i swam but i am really amazed at my stamina. not bad not bad. but it really is very hard to take care of my little cousin who is only 3. her parents only left us with a float to take care of her.
night fell and it's soon bbq time. as usual, i was just standing there, talk and no action.hahahaha.. directing my inexperienced cousins how they should set up the fire and stuff. think they desperate le.. in the end also nv listen to me. maybe they adults are not used to someone younger telling them what to do.. lol.. finally sat down with two of my cousins and chat. both are really very successful in life. hmm.. hope i can be like them one day! earn big bucks!!
anyway, yesterday was also my sixth aunt's birthday. think it was really very sweet of my cousins they all to surprise her with a birthday cake after we finished celebrating my niece's birthday. think she was also both delighted and paiseh coz her face was a crimson red when she realised we bought her a cake from secret recipe. that cake was really damn delicious i tell ya.. i had 2 huge slices of that thou my shorts were bursting.. lol..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, June 17, 2005 @11:04 AM
Yeah!!! Free Initial D posters and notbooks from my dear cousin!! isnt it wonderful to have a cousin who's a dua gi in GV? lalala~ so happy i bet i cant sleep tonight!! I LOVE JAY!!! *screams!!*
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Monday, June 13, 2005 @9:44 AM
had dinner with the e1 pple in nydc at holland v. met up with a grp of pple whoo i ahd not met for ages: yixuan, audrey, meihua. was kind of surprised to learn tt yixuan would be there coz she has never appear at any of the e1 gathering. dunno she didnt appear the last few times coz she didnt know abt the gathering or coz she does not feel like coming or coz she cant make it to the gathering. anyway, let's just give her the benefit of doubt ya? i shud learn to do that more often. think that she was quite abit of unfriendly. made an attempt to start a conversation with her but could sense that she dint really want to talk to me for whatsoever reason. asked her a few questions and she always replied in monosyllabus answers.. ya.. perhaps i'm just a tad too sensitive??? think we really shud have more of this gathering man. i made a breakthru again. at least i had a real conversation with xinda. lol. breakthru coz i dun think we ever talked to each other before in sec sch. even in jc. ya. realised that he's a ral nice guy. very knowledgable and capable person. quite a good catch. female singles reading this, i can try to help u pull red string if u are interested. hahaha.. thou i'm not close to him but can try mahz.. lol..
headed to wala wala after dinner where we chat about nothing in particular. all of uis drank some alcoholic except jia an.
pai seh had to arubtly end here coz need to go out now to meet gel.. haha.. maybe can play mahjong later le... lol..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Friday, June 10, 2005 @1:04 PM
Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male |
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Tuesday, June 07, 2005 @10:05 AM
sighz..... so so so sianz... wanted to go sun tanning myself but just too lazy to make the trip alone. i hate this hols! everyone is on attachment!! no one to accompany me!!!!
have u ever been so upset at someone that u just feel like evrything was ok till dunno how damn long has passed before the reality of it starts to sink in and u start to cry?
i dunno if this will be our final breakup. i'm mad at him. mad at him for even using the f word at me when we promised not to. for ignoring me one whole night when we promised never to ignore each other. he knows that i cant sleep in peace till i know he has reached home in one piece. he didnt even bother to sms or call me. i called him and he deliberately not answer his phone. i kept tossing and turning in my bed waiting for him to be home, worrying that something might have happened to him along the way home. finally i could stand it no longer, he shud be home by then. my brother happened to be playing maple story and he helped me private msg him on my behalf. yes, he was online. bloody piece of shit. isnt he just plain selfish? on top of that, i had already apologised and gave in to him le man. even when i suggested a breakup he dint even reply or what. tt's fine too. single life is more suitable for me anyway. i want to wear bikinis w/o any restirction. i dun wnat to feel guilty everytime i partied late into the wee hours. i dun have to care abt his damn feelings no matter what i do now.. think it's time i take a break.. what will be will be..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Saturday, June 04, 2005 @11:39 PM
been helping my cousin's friends sell kids clothes for the past 2 days. it was definitely not my first time helping them out. but yesterday undoubtedly "open" my eyes to the sort of mothers that actuallt existed. i'll like to name just 2 "special" categories. they are the cheap mothers and the cheapskate mothers.
cheap mother- this mother was browsing thru the kids clothes. i noticed her particularly coz she had a scarf over her shoulder, covering whatever she was carrying in her arms. at first glance i thought that the scarf was just an accessory. but when i came out of the counter to appraoch her, i realised that one side of her top was pulled right up. it was then i realised that she was carrying a baby in her arm and apparently, she was breastfeeding her baby. i was totally grossed out by the sight of it. to top it off, she casually removed the baby from her breasts after the baby stop sucking her damn nipple. it drew quite alot of attention from the male species who happened to walk past her. damn this kind of mother. i'm not against breastfeeding or anything but how can she do this kind of thing in public?!? she shud carry milk powder and hot water if she's coming out to shop ya? or breastfeed the poor baby in the feeding room of something like that. *pukes*
the cheapskate mother- this kind of mother wants only branded goods for their darling children yet they could not bear to part with their money or coz they do not have the money to buy branded stuff for their children. the clothes that i am selling are from osk kosh, zara, ralph lauren, maxi maxi, the children's palace, gymboree and the like. some of these brands might not look familar to most singaporeans coz most of the brands are from either US or aus. anyway, this mother told me that she only wants branded clothes and asked me to recommand her some pieces. i did as i was told and upon learning the prices she sarted to find fault with the designs and material. i gave her a demim top finally and i could tell she likes tt top alot. next she turned to me and asked me, "'cuse me, what brand huh?" i told her that i'm not very sure what this brand is (to sidetrack, my boss also carries some not so famous kids brand. i dunno coz i dun have a kid and i seldom work for them) on hearing that she said she dun want the top anymore. i was like wtf! no money then dun act rich lar.
tired le.. shall continue tomorrow instead. zzzZZZz........
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-
Wednesday, June 01, 2005 @11:44 AM
made a last minute decision to go sentosa with my sisters yesterday. the fact that she will be driving made me change my mind. had a nice time tanning yesterday.. but i'm still not brown enough!! must go for longer sessions next time. die man.. been going tanning so frequently so much nowadays.. hope i wun get skin cancer when i'm older... *CHOY!!!*
been slacking these few days man, no motivation to do anything else. (not as thou there are alot of things to do) can only kill time playing mahjong.. need more khakis.. haha. i shall nv ask yuanxiong to play mahjong with me again. this is not cause he's on a winning streak or anything but coz he's a bz man. he always claims he has something to do. "something" to do. ok. i get it. het pple reading this.. dun go tell him tt huh.. lol.. i've have no whatsoever intention of mentioning that.
damn.. today's gonna be another "fruitful" day. sleep. watch tv. sleep. watch tv. period. did i mention slack?
oh ya. think i'll change my blog address soon. thought of an add that is more interesting and more of my style. dun panic if u cant access my blog one day.. hmm.. wonder what is the most efficient and effective way of informing u guys abt my new address.. any suggestions??
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-