hey peeps. just want to clarify some stuff from my previous blog. i ahve nothing against fat people k? ok, maybe i shud not put it in such a crude way. i ahve nothing against people who are not skinny, or whoever is thinking i'm referring to them in my previous entry. lol. so people who advocates human rights, pls dun think i'm discriminating against them ya. i have completely nothing against them, in fact i adore them. ya. so pls dun condemn my blog. thank you. *smile sweetly* -puke-

anyway, had muscle ache man. chionging is actually one form of exercise that i have always sweared by. i love shaking my ass. everything. by shaking my ass, i'll know if my ass are sagging. u see, if i move to the right and after 0.0000001 second later, if i feel my ass muscle swinging back into position then i know i have not grow sideways. but if i move to the right again and after 0.0000001 seconds it doesnt swing back into position, i know my ass are sagging le. coz they are taking a much longer time to get back into their position. see, whoever said u need weighing machine to know if u had expanded sideways anot? clubbing is a good indicator of ur present weight. LOL. back to my muscle aching thing. after clubbing tt fri night. i woke up with sore knees and waist. tt's right. bet my waist inch is now smaller by 0.00001mm. *applaud* i really shud go clubbing more. hey people, reply lehz. so wanna go club again on 23/02/05 at zouk? it's ladies night man! free entry and 1 for 1!! mai tu liao lar! can come my hse stay overnight but i got lesson at 9 the next morning. no free ride this time. sis will not be gg. *pout*

darling's coming back tmr! ok, countdown to his arrival : 19 hrs! i can already imagine the scene at the airport. lol. the moment i see him, i'll run towards him, hands wide open. then he will run towards me with similar actions. then he will carry me and swing me round and round. LOL. Dreaming lar can!? like indian show sia. lol.. feeling very excited at the prospect of seeing him after so long..... hope he feels the same way too.. speaking of which, i'm gg to strangle him first thing i see him tmr. i was telling him tt he might not be able to recognise me tmr. silently i was thinking he might say something like coz of ur hair? but wat he said blow me away. he asked me straight, zuo mo lehz? ni bian mei hen duo ah? i like, ok.. ya.. ok.. hahaha *crack knuckles* so i wasnt pretty in his eyes ah! he was trying to deny tt statement but his damn phonecard saved him. watch out ah dear.. u better dun be too delighted to see me tmr.. *evil laughter*

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

made a last minute decision to go chinablack last night. luckily i have the accompany of zan, man, dan and martin.. imagine if i have gone with kailing and margaret only, i'll be so lonely and bored. i didnt see the 2 of them anywhere at all. it was not a good start man.. this stupid bouncer must have seen me too pretty, refused to let me in even thou i had given her my ic! she even asked for all the details in my ic. shit her. somemore man and zan's ic dun even look like them lor. kaoz. disadvantage of being too pretty and prominent. was thinking of writing to the papers to complain this morning while drinking peel fresh. decided against it coz realised it would be a total waste of my time. ok, so after muz question and until she is song liao then she let me in. if she ws gg to let me in le ask so muz for wat? only made her feel more idiotic and made me feel good. lol.

actually didnt really feel like gg, but it's been so long since i last clubbed so might as well go unwind lor. this sem super siong somemore. but the propelling force was tt i was so tired yesterday and the tot of studying made me so sianz.. so when my sister asked me if i wanted to go chinablack, i devised an escape plan from my studies. lol. hey man, i was in sch from 930 to 630 man. there was no break in between coz i was doing this stupid project that weighs just a mingre 10% in the coursework. somemore i did most of the work lor i must say. thanks to this free-riding bimbo in my group. hey geok, thanks for free-riding man. u made my life so muz easier! ok, maybe she didnt exactly free-ride but she was always like this and that lor, totally waste my 4 hours of break. volunteered to complie and stuff yet in the end we srta have to do together. wtf. somemore she claimed that she had complied but forgot to add the attachment. waste time man.

anyway back to clubbing at chinablack last night. though it was nbs bash, didnt really see muz nbs people. or perhaps i could not recognise them. me zan and man spent around an hour plus drinking and chatting at the bar counter. think it's been a long long time since i last drink, drink a little bit only can already feel my head weighing like a piece of lead. but tt's not drunk ok. i can still walk straight. ok, then dan and jimmy arrive and after some chatting and playing cai quan we headed to the dancefloor. shit lor.. the music was super off. so rnb and the rythem is just so sianz. didnt get the chance to display all my dancing skills coz not drunk enough. lol. while i was dancing at the platform, this irritating fat ass friend of martin happened to be beside me shaking his saggy ass and fats. he tapped me on my shoulder and i just grabbed his oily hand and threw it away. then he said wat no no, i was trying to tell u your tube is going to fall. wtf lor. it wasnt man. somemore it was so dark. fu*king bastard. the worst thing is he dare go look for my sister when my sister was dancing and asked him to dance with him. he still dare asked my sister if i was her friend and tt he meant no offence and asked for my sister's number. oh come on man u pathetic collection of fats. we thin people dun mix around with fat people. tt's y the opposite of thin is fat. no fats and fats are at the most extreme end of the measuring scale man, u moronic FAT idiot. get it? after yesterday night i realised guys are just so egoistic. i was with daniel and martin and zan they all waiting for my drinks and this guy came up to me and asked me hey how are u doing? do i even know u?. the other guy more egoistic. while i was walking to the dancefloor, this guy walked up to me and dunno say wat but i just completely ignored him and he still dun get it lor. keep saying hey no wait whatever shit. ya whatever, get off my back man.

ok, some of the music was superbly off so i just sat on the dancefloor. dun really care. after muz dancing and after burning some calories, we headed home. sis drove so dun have to spend redundant money on cabs. should really go again. it's fun to go clubbing. my hall is having a bash on 23/02/05 at zouk. it's a wed and ladies' night. any takers?

darling is coming back soon. so happy! think i'll go fetch him.. so long nv see him le.. hee~ i found all the info le. how to get there and stuff. think i'll just bring my books along and study while waiting for me coz got quiz on tues. :( really miss dear alot alot. everynight before i sleep i sure will open my hp and look at our pictures. unknowingly i'll just smile to myself. then i'll snuggle in my thick blanket and dream of darling's hugs.. awwww.. the power of love

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

sighz.. dunno if it's my new hair or wat.. everytime i looked into the mirror i'll be like.. pukes.. i look damn shit today.. must be my mini fringe.. *sob* dunno how dear will react when he's back next week. i told him over the phone but he didnt have muz reaction.. ok. tt's just typical of him. i used to be quite confident of my looks.. but haha.. out of the blue one day, i realise tt my sister is getting prettier and prettier. with her colour lenses and stuff. somemore we are now in the same school. people tends to compare and stuff. could feel my morale diping skyhigh. worse thing is i woke up with a pimple breakout this morning. gel said there was nothing but i could see those tiny red evil dots threatening to erupt anytime! ARGH!! when me and my sister were younger, everywhere we go people had always compared the 2 of us. since they do not know us well, obviously they will compare our looks. they had always say i was the prettier one. lol. *bhb* ok. even friends said so. but come on man.. ur friends have to say u r prettier mah! where got people come tell u hey i think ur sister is hotter than u? sighz. kind of feel low now man. *bleahz*

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

just got my hair cut and coloured recently. didnt really have any particular style in mind, so decided to leave my hair in the hands of the hairstylist. while recommending what ideas she had in mind, she said the one thing that no one had ever said to me before. she said i was sweet looking! *faint* all along pple only had comments like i'm very dao, looked very fierce and unapproacable, but sweet looking!? OMG.

anyway, she cut my hair till there are many many layers. the colour and design was suprememly fantastic, but my only complaint is she cut my fringe too short. way too short. i looked weird.. lol.. i cant have short fringe lar.. doesnt compliment my face shape. alot of pple said it's nice and cool. lol.. daniel and kk said i looked like an ah-lian. haha. ok lar.. but i know the red will drop eventually.. think then i'll go dye my whole hair black or wat lor.. see if my financial status then is good or bad. my friend even said i looked like a porcelein doll! is tt a compliment or wat? didnt know i was so exqusite. or rather, so fair. lol.

CNY is coming but i've yet to do my shopping. hope that mum would be in a generous mood and give me loads of money to go shopping! already planned to go shopping with xinyu this coming sat. any enthu shoppers to tag along?

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Yeah! manage to survive 12 hours of being in sch yesterday man. sch started at 9 and ended at 9. wtf. but i survive it.

minyi was supremely hilarious yesterday man. simply made my day by tellin me her encounter while shew as working with Eu Ren Sen. this zhong yi speaks neither malay nor mandarin. so minyi had to be the translator. apparently, this malay is seeking help coz she has been trying damn hard to conceive but was just simply unsuccessful. so after spilling her not able to get pregnant story to the doc (thru minyi) the doc gave her some advise.

doc: geng ta jiang yao 2, 4, 6 pu tai.
my: the doc said u must make love on 2, 4, 6.
malay: huh?
my: make love on 2, 4, 6
malay: huh? wat?
my(exasperated): doc said u must HAVE SEX on the 2, 4, 6
malay(abit the angry): ok

doc: ni geng ta jiang ye si, ru guo fa ren hen 1 pao jiu gou le. mei yo fa ren hen liang pao.
my: doc said u heaty drink one packet. not heaty 2 packets.
malay: how i know when i'm heaty?
my: ta wen ni ta zhen yang dong ta yao mei yao fa ren?
doc: jiao ta kan ta de da bian. heng de jiu si fa ren. bu ren jiu shi bu ren.
my (still super kao bei due to previous dialogue): doc said after u shit, look at ur shit. if ur shit is black means heaty. if not black is not heaty.

i was laughing like mad lor!! couldnt stop laughing after tt. ok. maybe it wasnt really funny here. u shud hear it from minyi man. her actions very big one and the tone she used was ultimate hilarious. because minyi is a bit the aunty one.. so sometimes when talk to her i think it's qte funny.. lol..

just came back from a hike from bukit timah hill. mum wanted to go there to exercise coz she wants to lose weight. haven even start hiking coz pissed liao. coz while we were looking for a parking slot, this irritating si ah moh dunno for wat f*cking reason honked at us. my mum then pointed to the triangle plate to indicate my sister is a new driver. anyway we took diff paths in the capark. but when we drove past them this woman in the car pointed middle finger at my youngest sister. stupid dog. dun dare to point at us. f*cking shit auntie. she did it in front of her own kids somemore. and her kids were ard my youngest sister's age lor which is like 10, 11. teach her children how to be coaward only. i wanted to point back my finger at them one lor. but my siter timid lar. only tell us after we went off. bitch! tt word is just an understatement. while walking in the park, realise age is catching up with me. piangz. panting after walking up the steep slope. unlike my glorious days in ODAC where i could even run up the slope. :(

today is a hol. hope i can manage to get my mum to sponsor me a new hairstyle.

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

GREEN DAY
"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

alright guys. i know my big day is still far away. was trying to get some sleep just now when jan smsed me and invited me to her bday. so i started thinking abt wat i want. hmm.. actually i wish tt i can undergo laser for my eyes, so tt i wun ever have to wear irritating specs or lens again! ya. could it be just a pious dream? sighz.. can already hear my mum and dad disagreeing coz of the high risk and undoubtedly the cost.sighz....

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

finally done with unpacking my damn file. loads of notes man. luckily i know the cheating method in school. can print millions of pieces of notes but just cost 5 cents. not i gian pem or wat lor. but the shitty notes are just so ex to print. nvm one mahz.. they are increasing the sch fees by 5% anyway. earning more than enough. hah.. suddenly had a bad premonition tt i might not be able to do well this sem. the work load is crushing me to my very bones. i'm struggling to keep up with the relevant readings but somehow i fail to do so miserably. to make matter worse, i have got an ah neh for my accounting information system. seems like he really loves fair chiobus. lol. kept asking me and margaret to ans questions. wat's up man?! has he got a memory span of a goldfish? &%$#@! darling just called me from NZ. So sweet! he's been calling me everyday actually. makes me feel less lonely. hee.. saw zan yesterday? yupz. she had a change of hairstyle, or rather colour. think she looks like a doll with the very black hair tt she's gotten. in all, i think it's not bad. didnt have time to chat with her coz rushing for lecture. wanted to talk to her one. lol. perhaps complain only lar. ya, i know i'm a complaint queen. cant help it man. i'm just too perfect. from my blog u shud have realised i'm fug this and tt literally everyday. lol. was doubting the significance of my blog just the other day. realised tt i didnt really put all or most of my tots down. dun ask me y. ask me wat k? yes, i'm bored so pls ring me and chat with me if u are feeling bored too. i always love to talk to people one. haha.

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Darling just went to NZ yesterday and i'm missing him like mad le. the tot of him leaving for 3 weeks is still bearable.. but the tot of not talking to him, seeing him, hugging him, scolding him is totoally unbearable! i need him now!! NOW NOW NOW!! I'm stress up now, damn shit fugged up man! this shall be my opening and ending vignette for today's entry. dammit!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Happy Anniversary darling! yupz. we have been together for exactly one year le. it was not easy but it's not tt hard either. thou we both have misgivings about each other at some point of time, we both got them over fast! still can remember one year ago where u dun even dare to ask me to be your girlfriend. i was the one who took the initiative to hold your hand while walking to zan's hall. tt night you stayed in my hall with me. kept asking you to formally ask me but u just cant seem to find the words. u even ask me for tai ci! wah lau eh! somemore when u evetually got the words out of your mouth you were whispering lor. cant even hear u. but aiyah nvm lar. lol. these past 12 months had been sweet for me. sweet when you took care of me, make me laugh, buy stuff tt i wanted, etc. but even quarraling with u is sweet too. even when u made me cry. (idea from windstruck one)

now that we are one year old, of coz i wish tt there would be muz muz more anniversaries to come. there are still many things i want to do with you. just like wat i told u today while dining at jack's place. i expect you to treat me lawry's prime pork ribs lor. actually i know tt deep down in ur heart tt u always have nv believed tt my love for u is true coz of other factors. but i want you to know tt ur fears are unfounded coz i know tt you would be the one who can truly make me happy and give me a life tt i've always dream of. right now i am really happy being together with you, because loving you is a simple task. tt's coz i know u always place my happiness on top of ur priority and u have nv hurt me. i know tt you would always be by my side, be me happy or sad. but whether u will always stand on my side is another issue lar huh. hehee. i know you are the one coz i know tt i want to grow old with u, stroll along the seaside with u hand in hand, eat french fries with you, watch cartoons and play games with you even when we are old and my old sagging breasts are literally touching the ground as i walked. dun be turned off man. *slaps* i love u dear!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

just came back from sch. sianz. took the bus to JP with yinying (yy in short k?). she's my tut classmate. yupz.. this is the second sem where we ended up as tut mates. anyway ya, we always didnt have muz to talk abt but today was still ok. no awkward silence or anything. haha. dunno y. after talking to her i think she's a pretty nice person. someone who is very "real" and unassuming. someone who is easily contented. unlike me. i'm a typical leo and i get jealous faster than u can say "a for apple". so tt's me for u. anyway, she commented that i was beautiful!! lol.. ya, didnt know she tot of me in tt light. she even encouraged me to try for the SIA poster girl. lol.. i'm not tt chio lar.. i know she just say only but nevertheless i still feel happy! she also asked me y i nv try for modelling. actually if given the opportunity now, i think i might just grab it. regretted for not getting a namecard from the countless who approached me to be a model in the past. ok, i know u guys must be thinking i'm damn bhb. but nvm lar. i'm sure u guys know me well enough to know tt i'm like this one.. lol.. back to where i was saying, i think i shud just be easily contented as well too. like tt i will not feel so stressful or wat le. right now i guess i just want to get this fugging acc degree and get the hell out of ntu. be it hons or no hons. i'm not cut out to be an accountant. ya. reality has finally sink into my brain. guess something more intelligent would suit me better. ok. perhaps i might get into the accounting line after i graduated. but i believed success is more than just a worthless and meaningless cert. so wat if u got 1st class hons? tt simply means u are just gd at studying. it does not necessarily mean u can superbly fit into the working world. tt's y lecturers are just people who stick to wat they do best: studying. i'm not gg to let people to get me down anymore. i'm not gg to feel stress anymore when they tell me they already finished wat and wat. i'm not also gg to believe anyone who comes out of the examination hall and say they going to fail or wat the paper sucks like fugging shit. this is wat experience had taught me. as my dad said to me, only half believe stuff people tell u, or u end up being the stupid fool. this includes friends. i learned it the hard way man. ya. welcome to the harsh and cruel reality of life.

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

had a dream last night. woke up feeling very sad. dreamt tt i went to KL. while staying in the hotel, i realised tt my hotel neightbour is rudy. i dunno y i dreamt of him anyway. anyway he told me tt he still likes me and stuff.. ya.. and we sorta meet up. in the dream, i was also with dear too. however, dear was quite ok with me meeting him. ya. and rudy sorta hinted to me tt he wishes that we could be back together. i did not give him an answer in the dream. suddenly, me, dear, this girl (a stranger) rudy and his gf were walking on this road. i saw dear and this stranger very close. as in they were holding hands and whispering into each other's ears. ya. ahead of them were rudy and his gf. seeing dear and tt girl being so intimate, i ran. for some peculiar reason, i was barefooted. while i was running, i step onto a large shard of broken glass. but the person who came to help me was rudy. ya. the next scene was at the hotel where rudy told dear he wanted to meet him at his room. i went before dear did and somehow or another, rudy turned into louis khoo. lol.. shuai shi wo le!! as in rudy has louis khoo looks and bod. hahaha.. ya.. then louis khoo said he wants to be with me!! ok. tt's the end of the dream. i dunno y, but i just woke up feeling very disoriented and fan. (pls dun imagine things when u read this dear)

anyway, went to kailing's condo to celebrate her birthday yesterday. went to buy her birthday pressie earlier. dear then told me we would be sharing the pressie with eli and brenda as well. tt's on top of yuehong, alex chia, kel and gel. i was upset tt dear agreed before telling me. not tt he needs my permission or wat, but the pressie was my idea. in addition, kailing also nv include eli's share lor. tt just goes to show how small and insignificant tt bitch is. dun ask me y i hate her. i just do. actually also is not dear's fault. coz i was the one who asked him to find more pple to share the pressie so at least each individual would not have to pay so muz. ya. i also didnt tell him who to reject mahz. blame it on miscommunication bahz. i was fuming and so didnt talk to dear on the journey to town. while waiting for gel and kel i also didnt talk to him or even acknowledge his presence. i seriously dun feel bad coz i dun think i was at fault in the first place. i tot tt he might give in to me but he didnt. it's been a long time since he gave in to me anyway. bleahz~ in the end i gave in lor. no point spoiling the whole day's mood. but this incident made me realised tt i like to be control of my relationship. i dun like people to tell me when to shit, wat to eat or whatever. in a nutshell, i shud be the one giving directions in the relationship. step across the boundary and you are dead. at the sme time, i like to feel protected and well-taken care of. i want a guy who will stand on my side even when i'm wrong. dun give me logic. my ears automatically reject any frequencies of logic sound. i want a guy to take care of me when i'm sick. even if it's just a small scratch on my skin, i expect him to make a big fuss out of it too. bring me to doc when i'm sick. buy medicine when i'm sick. stand up for me when people bullies me, regardless of the bully's gender. even if it's a girl who bullied me, i expect my guy to just punch her in the stomach as well. i expect my guy to also be romantic. give me surprises. my guy shud not be a pushover. shud be one who is firm and assertive. if not how can he fit in the bill of my gallant shining prince in armour if he's just forever whiny and weak. anyway, forgot to tell u guys tt we bought a vibrator for kailing. lol. for the benefit of people who dunno wat it is, it's just a substitution for a male human being's penis.

the E1 people who turned up are kenglim, ruihang, xi gua, kimpern, audrey, shilin, jinglei, me, dear and kel. the party was quite grand i must say. there are really alot alot of people. the food was good too. we got down to playing balckjack after eating. it was kind of fun coz i think no one really took it seriously. it was all in the name of fun. ruihang got this unbrella and he kept poking people with it! he looks like tweenty bird's ah ma. lol.. he still looks like a small kid and he's nice and he's single!! towards the end of the party, kailing invited us to vodka sprite. think it proved too muz for kimpern. he drank till his whole face was red! ya. before leaving we planned a CNY gathering to mdm chao's place. Hope to catch up with them soon..

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

had my first GE lesson just yesterday. lecturer is some ah neh. (zan, ur favorite!!) surprisingly, he spoke fluent englsih, w/o any ah neh accent. this GE is really enriching. as in he told us stuff tt i didnt even know can help in our career. but i think he is an intelligent person. i guess he's one who always achieved what he wants. he's old. bet he's ard 50+ but he told us he had the mind of a 30 year old. he said he re-invented himself. tt's kind of weird and disgusting to hear. lol. i seriously hope this GE can really push me to greater heights man. i long realised that climbing the corparate ladder is an uphill task. but somehow after the lecture yest, it sorta motivate me and changed my perspective. i now take tt as an attainable challenge. i love challenges. i want to be able to make at least $5000 a month after working for some time. aiyah, but of coz, whether i will really achieve my goal is another matter. but i will not give myself some leeway and say it's ok if i dun achieve it. coz i believe the more slack u allow urself, the higher possibility tt u will NV reach ur goals.

sch had already started for like 1 week yet i do not feel any momentum. there are simply so many readings to do. i feel tired constantly. tt's true man. my sch day usually starts at like 9 and ends ard 4+, 6+ man. i have 2 days where i end at 6+. i go hm i really dun feel like touching my bks anymore. right now, i'm totally lagging behind all those damn readings. worse still, the readings are just too chim to understand. this sem is moving like an express train. i dun even have some time to take a breather, to have some me-time. sometimes i really think i had become a nutcase. as in i have the systoms of behaving strangely. i smiled to myself and always praise myself in the mirror tt i have become prettier. LOL. no lar! just joking.

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

yeah! got myself a new phone today. trade in for samsung E600C.. hehe.. so happy!! had loads of fun playing with the phone. wanted the slide phone one but a bit bulky so decided to get this instead. more class. hah.. coming down with flu le.. can feel my shoulders aching like mad man.. ahchew~~~!!!!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

sch is starting tmr. super sianz. go sch 2 hrs alos super idiotic. went to town today with dear. his mum gave him $200 coz she said dear is always wearing the same clothes. can u believe it? OMG. i wish my mum is also like tt. lol.. then i really can be shopping queen. can destress at the same time man. lol. dint buy anything muz. dear bought me this pair of earrings while i bought this only piece of top from 77th street. wah lau, cheat my money lor.. cant even try then go hm wear like a bit off.. but nvm, wait till i get myself a new jacket then i can wear to sch.. lol.. also shape my brows today. u guys shud try the hollyswood secrets at paragon, and look for wing. she's good. lol.. i mean at least she always manage to trim my brows till it's super nice. tt's how i think anyway. hee. wing told me today tt she envied me fr my brows coz they are long and broad. oh man, tt's such a huge compliment, considering tt she's a pro. lol. she made my day. haha. saw a bag tt i love to bits today. i must say i really have fate with tt bag. think i'll buy it and bring it to sch.. but it's a bit small. shall go back for it soon nevertheless. when i have cash then i shall go dye my hair. gg to dye it pure black. tt will surely give me a more seh look. NBS guys better dun come provoke me. to me, all the NBS guys is totally CMI. If they ever come after me, i shall go after their small pathetic dicks and snip them off in one clean, swift move. they are just so pui. i dunno y i hate them so muz too. maybe due to countless unpleasant encounters with most of them. disgusting faggots. think i shall not stereotype too. but ok lar, maybe 1 in like 541789523 guys is this nice perfect gentleman. dear is undoubtedly gg to be tt only one guy when he enter NBS next sem. ok, make it two. yuehong too i guess. lol. gg to dream of castrating NBS guys now. night. anyway, peace with my wild fantasies. no offence pls people.

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

just exchanged text with xinyu. as i was on my way home, a sense of dread start to wash over me. i'm already starting to feel exhausted. seriously speaking, i'm feeling very panicky right now!! now!! i hate sch. i actually contemplated quitting sch on mnay many occasions. but i just dun have the damn guts to do it. i dun belong to this damn stupid place at all. call me a pessimist, but i dun care a shit. working life suits me to a t withput a doubt. i only love sch life when it's the hols man. i have nv look forward to sch reopening at all. shucks! i just feel stress now thinking of all the killer disgusting projects i have to do. am i really going out to the working world to do all this shit? if so, pls let me find a sugar daddy!!! (forgive me dear, i really wil die under all these enormous stress) *sob* damn.. i feel like crying now.. i haven even gotten a new sch bag! i haven even dyed my hair! i haven even shop for enough clothes!!*sob sob* i seriously think i going to have a huge breakdown. somebody get me a pycharist man!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Alright, didnt really have a proper countdown. spend the night playing maplestory with dear and my sister. went to bed only at 3+.. anyway, here's my resolution for this new year! hope it wun let me down.. :p

(1) better results
(2) treat my loved ones better
ie: family, dear and my bestest friends!
(3) have at least $500 bucks in my bank account
(4) be more discreet about my life to certain pple
(5) dun stress over the small stuff
(6) smile more!

♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-

Leo. Monies. Happiness. Gold. Red. Black. Tom-Yum. Chocolates. Nerdy Bob. Eyeliner. Mascara. Family. Mahjong. Friends. Love. Independent. Reading. Sleeping. Shopping. Clubbing. Curls. Taking pictures. Confident. The 4 ladies in my life. Competitive. Laughter. Tears. Sun Rays. Excitement. Beer. Thrill.



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