Wednesday, July 01, 2009 @10:02 AM
cant get to sleep. Wanted to use the desktop in my living room to surf net but decided to save myself the hassle of turning on the computer n then waiting it for it to run. Therefore, decided to blog using my phone. The feel of blogging via a phone is totally different. It feels like typing a very long sms to someone. Not sure if i cant get to sleep because of the long nap i took this noon or because of the many thoughts that r currently thru my mind. Somehow my guess is the latter. Everytime i close my eyes, my mind starts to conjure up sms, conversations exchange n the emotions that might spew out of me when i see her. Never in my life have i been so disappointed with her. Never in my life will i think that we will still have such a big fight at our age. Never in my life will i imagine that we mean so little to her. Never in my life have i ever hated her as much as now. Everything that she does stems from her own pleasure. She does as n what she pleases, without any consideration to the people who care for her. I tried my. best to speak to her but i didnt know she doesnt care till akl slapped the fact on my face. Her silence has already meant that she was never on our side. I'm extremely disappointed in her. In fact, nothing can express how disappointed i am. Perhaps i should lie to myself that such person has never existed before n perhaps then all of us can be happier.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-