Tuesday, June 16, 2009 @2:44 AM
The time now is 1744. I'm just so looking forward to tomorrow! Though I'm feeling excited now, I'm also worried that I wont be able to finish all my stuff on hand before I head to the airport.. 3 accounts on hand to be signed tomorrow.. Not sure if something will go wrong at the 11th hour.. What the hell.. be it signed or unsigned, I'll still go for my extremely well-deserved vacation and decide only when I come back. Realised that my committment towards my work is getting lesser and lesser. I think this is the first time that I'm on leave and i didnt even bother to bring my laptop home to check for any important emails. But then again, nobody is indispensable.
I'm not sure if my committment decreased because of the unfair grading that I've witnessed, or because I dont feel as much passion for audit anymore. The other day, the so-called star performer, who everyone feels that she does not warrAnt such good grading, called me on a sunday night from the office. I simply refused to pick up though the phone was ringing incessantly. I thought to myself, y should I be helping someone who got a better appraisal than me? she got a better appraisal than me, so she should know more than I do. Perhaps you might think that I'm just being a sore loser, or being pure sour grapes about the whole matter. But for someone who's always snatching the kind of credit others deserve, and back-stabbing your own subordinate is something that I dont feel that one should do to climb up the corporate ladder. Worse, her subordinate is someone who hates audit. He always tells us that he is still holding on because he feels bad to leave his senior to suffer alone. Little did he know that he's been back-stabbed by his favourite senior who wants to get a good appraisal. Anyway, she is someone who will carry out a lot of subtle actions to appear innocent and hardworking and as though she is very "shou wei qu". But having work together, the team knows very well whose credit she's been snatching from. Just to clarify, she didnt snatch any credit from me because thankfully, we dont have the chance to work closely together. I'm just feeling sad and sorry for my friend.
My lack of committment also proved to be for the better. I'm not so strong-headed about certain work issues anymore and my working style has become more laidback. This gives me more room to tolerate the different working styles and attitude my teammates have.
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Packed up my room today and I'm astonished to find more how much garbage I have. Came across photos, cards, notes that brought back such fond memories. I resolved to treasure the people around me more..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-