Saturday, June 17, 2006 @10:41 AM
Today's Mahjong session with Janice, KK and Winston was rather fun. Laughing sessions with Jan today brought me back to our JC days and I thought to myself how great it would be if our friendship would always remain just the way it is - perpetual laughter and fun. My friend told me once that the people whom you considered good friends changes with time. I remained skeptical when she made that comment. However, I'm starting to believe increasingly that this statement does hold some element of truth in it.
At times, when I have too much spare time, I'll start to think about certain issues, in particular relationships. And I do not mean just boy-girl relationships, but friendship and kinship as well. Of all relationships, I think friendship is the hardest relationships that I have to deal with. Perhaps my expectations are just too high. Perhaps friendships drift apart with time and environment changes. Or perhaps, I've become more cynical and pessimistic with time. Sometimes I think about my good friends and I ask myself exactly how much I understand them. At times, I feel I do not understand them very much. At times, I could feel like we are the bestest of friends and nothing could ever split us up. It was at these moments of self-reflection that I realised that there have been only 3 friends who have stood by me during my darkest moments and led me back to the path of light. Regretfully, only 2 remained. Of course, it would definitely be wonderful if I could have the 3rd friend back again. And it is these 3 friends who have constantly made me feel like I've been a good friend to them as well. I know it because they always made me feel like I've never been forgotten. I know it because I know I can always rely on them to make me smile and feel better again. I know it because they always take time out of their busy schedule just to hear me complain and whine about the sillliest thing. And I know it because I know I will climb the highest mountains for them to sustain our relationships.
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To the third good friend: I've been wanting to contact you but I guess the long period of not contacting you have made it awkward for me to do so. That's why I cherish the time I chat with you on MSN these past 2 weeks or so, despite it being just general chat. Though we have not talked for quite some time, you are always on my mind. I hope you are doing well now. I know you are starting work this coming monday, 19th June and I pray that everything goes smoothly and wonderful for you. Stay the way you are because that's what made you extremely endearing as a friend. Your place in my heart would never be replaced. Hopefully, someday, we will be where we once were. Cheers.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-