it's 2 more days to my birthday celebration. i guess most people in my shoes might start to feel panicky or even super excited tt they wun be able to sleep at night. how i wish i could feel just like that. the string of events that happened recently is making me feel uptight. i guess the remaining half year is just gonna sucky. imagine celebrating your birthday with a pair of swollen eyes. dad is still now telling me that what happened is 70% my fault coz if i didnt ask my sister to bring me there this will not have happened. but hey, my sister was the one who does not mind ferrying me and for his information i did ask her not to park the damn freaking car in that fucking place. since she's the driver and she decides to park there, what more can i say? i told that to my dad and he scolded me for not getting my license. is tt also my fault? he kept asking me to give in to her and stuff. come on man, i took the initiative to talk to her many times against my will coz i want my whole family to be enjoying theirselves this sat. she just doesnt care and insisted on switching on her mute mode. i have my own dignity and pride too. if she's expecting me to go all the way then let her dream. because we are sisters i have already tolerated alot of things and i have already given in to her alot. it's not fair for me to make all the moves yet she does not even reciprocate right? my dad even asked me to try asking her to help me with the delivery of the foodstuff. he's too hopeful. wah lau, come one lar, given any one of u guys in my shoes i bet u guys will not even want to talk to her anymore. let alone request something from her. moreover she thinks of me as someone who's out to make use of her only what.what's the point man.. so much for being sisters.