Tuesday, June 07, 2005 @10:05 AM
sighz..... so so so sianz... wanted to go sun tanning myself but just too lazy to make the trip alone. i hate this hols! everyone is on attachment!! no one to accompany me!!!!
have u ever been so upset at someone that u just feel like evrything was ok till dunno how damn long has passed before the reality of it starts to sink in and u start to cry?
i dunno if this will be our final breakup. i'm mad at him. mad at him for even using the f word at me when we promised not to. for ignoring me one whole night when we promised never to ignore each other. he knows that i cant sleep in peace till i know he has reached home in one piece. he didnt even bother to sms or call me. i called him and he deliberately not answer his phone. i kept tossing and turning in my bed waiting for him to be home, worrying that something might have happened to him along the way home. finally i could stand it no longer, he shud be home by then. my brother happened to be playing maple story and he helped me private msg him on my behalf. yes, he was online. bloody piece of shit. isnt he just plain selfish? on top of that, i had already apologised and gave in to him le man. even when i suggested a breakup he dint even reply or what. tt's fine too. single life is more suitable for me anyway. i want to wear bikinis w/o any restirction. i dun wnat to feel guilty everytime i partied late into the wee hours. i dun have to care abt his damn feelings no matter what i do now.. think it's time i take a break.. what will be will be..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-