Wednesday, June 22, 2005 @9:36 AM
sometimes i wonder if it's because i often imposed my expectations on people, that's y i'm left disappointed. i also do not know if i's because i'm someone who is willing to go all out for a friend and that's y i expect my friends to reciprocate the same thing. perhaps there are really no real tangible people called friends. perhaps they are your friends coz of the thing people nowadays believe piously - networking. i cant help but being damn freaking cycnical. On another hand, what William said was correct.. all the trivial matters have a way of snowballing into something BIG. perhaps that explained my acrimonious entry today.. thinking back, i realised people around me have been singing me the same tune but it's just that i refused to be taken in coz i always believe in my own judgement. i always thought i'm damn mighty zai, can frequently judge people accurately. BUT i was wrong.
I wonder y people like to complain so much. no doubt i'm one of those complain queens but i only complain to dear.. i think it's very wrong to go complain about ur unhappiness with one person to a 3rd person who is close to the 2 of u. luckily the 3rd person was fair enough to call me and asked me what happened. after listening to what she was being told, i got kind of angry coz the facts are twisted. if the facts were correct i will keep mum and try to understand maybe a different perspective. let's just say i'm very disppointed with that person. i discovered how selfish and self-centred the person is. self-centred was not the term used by me but the 3rd party upon knowing what really took place.
on a lighter tone, yesterday can be considered screwed-up day. cant get the timetable that i wanted. ended up with a tamade 5 day week. seriously i damn fucking sick of all the unfairness. I always plan the fucking timetable YET i was nv the one who got the ideal timetable. at least i was the one who at least care enough to come up with a backup timetable. STILL, FUCKING STILL, i cant get it. KNNBCCB. talk about fairness. I HAD ENOUGH! this is not the first time le.. anyway got to thank dear for helping me bid man.. despite the clamour he mangaed to help me register into one of the ideal time slots.. when i was feeling down yesterday he was there to give me moral support, console and help me! thanks dear! and xinyu too! *HUGZ* Xinyu is my damn solid friend. she always has a knack to know when i'm feeling down and she will then call me. me too.. coz i always save her from boredom. hahahaha..
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-