Sunday, January 02, 2005 @1:02 AM
just exchanged text with xinyu. as i was on my way home, a sense of dread start to wash over me. i'm already starting to feel exhausted. seriously speaking, i'm feeling very panicky right now!! now!! i hate sch. i actually contemplated quitting sch on mnay many occasions. but i just dun have the damn guts to do it. i dun belong to this damn stupid place at all. call me a pessimist, but i dun care a shit. working life suits me to a t withput a doubt. i only love sch life when it's the hols man. i have nv look forward to sch reopening at all. shucks! i just feel stress now thinking of all the killer disgusting projects i have to do. am i really going out to the working world to do all this shit? if so, pls let me find a sugar daddy!!! (forgive me dear, i really wil die under all these enormous stress) *sob* damn.. i feel like crying now.. i haven even gotten a new sch bag! i haven even dyed my hair! i haven even shop for enough clothes!!*sob sob* i seriously think i going to have a huge breakdown. somebody get me a pycharist man!
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-