Monday, January 10, 2005 @3:38 PM
just came back from sch. sianz. took the bus to JP with yinying (yy in short k?). she's my tut classmate. yupz.. this is the second sem where we ended up as tut mates. anyway ya, we always didnt have muz to talk abt but today was still ok. no awkward silence or anything. haha. dunno y. after talking to her i think she's a pretty nice person. someone who is very "real" and unassuming. someone who is easily contented. unlike me. i'm a typical leo and i get jealous faster than u can say "a for apple". so tt's me for u. anyway, she commented that i was beautiful!! lol.. ya, didnt know she tot of me in tt light. she even encouraged me to try for the SIA poster girl. lol.. i'm not tt chio lar.. i know she just say only but nevertheless i still feel happy! she also asked me y i nv try for modelling. actually if given the opportunity now, i think i might just grab it. regretted for not getting a namecard from the countless who approached me to be a model in the past. ok, i know u guys must be thinking i'm damn bhb. but nvm lar. i'm sure u guys know me well enough to know tt i'm like this one.. lol.. back to where i was saying, i think i shud just be easily contented as well too. like tt i will not feel so stressful or wat le. right now i guess i just want to get this fugging acc degree and get the hell out of ntu. be it hons or no hons. i'm not cut out to be an accountant. ya. reality has finally sink into my brain. guess something more intelligent would suit me better. ok. perhaps i might get into the accounting line after i graduated. but i believed success is more than just a worthless and meaningless cert. so wat if u got 1st class hons? tt simply means u are just gd at studying. it does not necessarily mean u can superbly fit into the working world. tt's y lecturers are just people who stick to wat they do best: studying. i'm not gg to let people to get me down anymore. i'm not gg to feel stress anymore when they tell me they already finished wat and wat. i'm not also gg to believe anyone who comes out of the examination hall and say they going to fail or wat the paper sucks like fugging shit. this is wat experience had taught me. as my dad said to me, only half believe stuff people tell u, or u end up being the stupid fool. this includes friends. i learned it the hard way man. ya. welcome to the harsh and cruel reality of life.
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-