Saturday, August 14, 2004 @11:36 AM
so mad at my dearie now.. dun understand y is it tt he can never tell me straight in the face abt wat he is unhappy abt.. y muz only at night when he's gg to sleep le then can say?! He nv seems to communicate with me one lor.. telling his friends more things than me!! really QI SHI WO LE!!!! Dun understand y he got so upset over the pics i posted in friendster lor.. wat's wrong? i think it's my right lor.. i just find it very hard to think on his side coz when i showed him the photos the other day he also nv say anything mahz!! Then now come show me black face and stuff.. i really hate it when pple is unhappy with me and when i asked them they just refused to say anything and then later come tell u lor.. so pissed!! I will feel super super exasperated one lor.. dear i hope u understand how i feel if u ever read this lor.. i've always told u tt relationship can nv be one-sided.. it's abt communications!! So can u pls open tt golden mouth of urs if u really want us to last?! u want to drive me to my grave is it?! i dun want sms u now coz i'm really damn angry at u..i dunno wat i'll say and i dun want to hurt u with the wrong things i'll say.. i'm angry partly coz of the pics but mostly at the fact tt u always refused to tell me how u feel!!!! u think i got supernatural powers can read ur mind mehz?! Somemore this is not the 1st time i told u i want us to communicate to communicate!!! i do hope u can change lor.. *argh*
Sigh.. suddenly think of how muz i love my darling i also feel a bit bad.. i mean he's forever putting me b4 him and yet i'm here scolding him.. pple.. pls dun always believe wat i wrote here.. esp when i'm angry or despondent for there's such a thing called external attribution.. *heehee* anyway i'm still angry.. he threw a tantrum 1st so i'm nt gg to care.. i'm angry and scolding him right here but tt does not mean i love him any lesser.. in fact when we made up i'll only love him more..sighz *i love u darling* (pls dun be angry after u read this, these r my truest sentiments)
♥ -Dollicious-Sinner-